so...
so I just, five seconds ago, had a massive rant about everything...but...I just deleted it...because I realized that none of what I had said in it mattered to anyone but me. So, I guess for anyone besides myself that reads this journal....for three days during new years while I was sick, I came to all the realizations that I needed to come to...about everyone and everything in my life...with the sensitive nature of people today I'll just leave it at that. Moving this year, and now my trip to Scotland, one of the few places I have dreamed about going...is the start...and after that who knows where things will take me, but I do know that it will be 'far' away from all of this 'weak' bs that I've been trying to understand for a while now. I've made that promise to myself.
since I really only post in this journal to plunk my feelings down....I;ve decided that, if I don't do it sooner than this, I'll be closing this journal the day before I leave for Scotland. when I get back I'll be a ghost...somewhere along the roads that I've already set to travel, I'll find what I'm looking for and the people that genuinely care...and it'll be all up to them, not me...I've made my efforts........
since I really only post in this journal to plunk my feelings down....I;ve decided that, if I don't do it sooner than this, I'll be closing this journal the day before I leave for Scotland. when I get back I'll be a ghost...somewhere along the roads that I've already set to travel, I'll find what I'm looking for and the people that genuinely care...and it'll be all up to them, not me...I've made my efforts........