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ey everyone im bak again, so this prolly wont be a big entry but o well till i find something that can make everyone use their lil bitty heads i'll just ramble a lil bit. well my day wasnt all that good my shit that i orderd still hasnt come in yet goddamn fuckers it better comein later today. anyway im just starting to get lonely cause the chick that i realy like i hafnt talk to her in almost a week :( on the other hand i haf my sister in a realy pissed mood right now cause someone was talking shit behind her bak if i could i'd kill that fuker she is my sis and i would do anything for her even if it ment giveing her my own kidney. and the chick that i miss so much (val) man i can even begin to explain how much i miss her it just hurts feels like im alone as useual but when she is talking to me im somehow filled with all this happinessthat i dunt feel when i talk to her i no everyone has someone like that even if it be a close friend and maybe some ppl dunt but they can find one if they look hard enough. i'm allways here to talk to if anyone that reads this journal needs my help just coment and or add me to aim or yahoo and i'll help ya best as i can. lmao i've been told i should be a shrink but hell if i was that i would be helping ppl that didnt want to be helped i meen think bout it who in there right mind WANT'S to go to a shrink i no i wouldnt i meen i would rather be a guy that helps ppl cause they ether ask me for help or i no they need help and i vollinter to help them. thats how me and val met long story so i'll talk bout it later i'll say this though im sooooo glad that i met her she is the most beautiful girl ive ever seen inside and out. if u think about it problems r all around us we just dont want to see them take my ex for example she has a problem with holding on to ppl she gets to close then pushes them away and i turn uses them cause she is afrad that she will get hurt just as she did with her other bf's. i meen i understand that she was raped as a lil kid but the past is the past i no it hurts but the more u stay in the past the lonelier u'll end up being. and all lonely ppl will no is hurt and pain cause they wont let others help them i haf a lot of hurt and pain in me i do the rong thing and hide it all away in the bak of my head ( i no i dont practice wat i preach) and thats not good to do but i haf had no gidence growing up hell i never got disaplined when i was young never the only thing i got was a fucking wipping like 2 times in my life i meen damn i got grounded for like 2 days at a time my family resents me cause im different i dunt go to cherch, i dunt worship god hell i dunt do a lot of things my own grandma wont even acnolage me unless i leave somewere makes me sick to no that family is like that im sure a lot of u no wat im talking bout. well anyway i guess i'll go now so u wont hafta hear me babble anymore one more lil thing a quote " dont do wat just makes u happy or u will be alone for all eternity instead do ur best to make someone that is specail to u doesnt have to be ur bf or gf could be ur best friend or ur best grilfriend and dont let the past dwell on ur mind or ut will engulf u in its depths let the past be and go on to better things, but alas i cant be the one to tell u want to do with ur life thats for u to choose so choose well for it may lead u down somewhere u might not wanna end up after all....... laterz