Something on my mind...
I got invited to a very close friend's wedding last month and I am more than likely going to go. Ok scratch more than likely and insert "come Hell or high water or no job" into that last sentence. There is a HUGE problem though, half of the people he is going to invite freaking hate my GUTS! They remember me from 10 or so years ago and they don't know the person that I have become today, they only remember the person I was then. When I posted that I have wrong a lot of people, I meant it. Not to mention my ex husband and his wife are going to be there as well I'm sure. Well maybe not after they catch wind that I will be attending. Wifey number 2 has serious issues with me but that is gossip/drama for another day. I am really not uncomfortable being around them, I am uncomfortable being around the whole group of them. It is kind of like John Cofey said in the Green Mile "I can feel their hate, it is like bees stinging me." I'm not there yet and it is 6 months away but when I walk in that church, I know that is exactly how it is going to feel. I know I am not there for a popularity contest, I am there to support my friend on his very special day but I still can't help but to feel slightly uneasy about the whole thing.