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I keep getting this shit....
and i posted about it a while ago..
maybe i should've changed the outcome before it even hapened...
i could've...
why didnt i ..??
if i was an asshole... then i'd be an asshole... but...
what can i say... the God isnt an asshole
...its whatever..
see.. its like.. you love someone..
but then you LOVE someone..
and when you LOVE that person... and they fuck you..
it hurts like... well.. like hell (for lack of a better phrase)
now.. its up to you.. if you want to forgive them...
but if you forgive them.... and they fuck you again...
what are you supposed to do..???
me personally..i've been dealing with this shit for years.
some would say 5... 6...
but i've been on some 'forgive a muh-fucker' shit for like.. 10 years..
and i get fucked everytime.. 2, 3, 4, times..
and im still there.. still supportive.
still the nice guy....
accused...
heh... that's some shit..
how the fuck....can you do that shit..
how can you be so......blind....
i did everything... EVERY-fucking-THING that you asked..
but yet... im still not god enough..
is it all good.. no.. because i'll forever hurt..
but maybe its my fault.. maybe i like setting myself up for some fucked up shit..
and maybe this whole time i've been talking out of my ass...
i dont like sharing my feelings.. but im a very emotional person..
go figure..
is it something i have to work through...
fuck yea...
should i sever ties...
if im asked to...
do i want to...
no...
do i see a reason to..
no...
do i think it will happen...
my views have gotten me in enough trouble already...
so yea.. this is probly my last post.
the children can have their fun...
and the rumors can continue...
the 'talking out the side of your mouth' shit will die down..
hopefully..
but hey.. im just me... am i god.. and does it matter..
.......i dont know anymore..
and i posted about it a while ago..
maybe i should've changed the outcome before it even hapened...
i could've...
why didnt i ..??
if i was an asshole... then i'd be an asshole... but...
what can i say... the God isnt an asshole
...its whatever..
see.. its like.. you love someone..
but then you LOVE someone..
and when you LOVE that person... and they fuck you..
it hurts like... well.. like hell (for lack of a better phrase)
now.. its up to you.. if you want to forgive them...
but if you forgive them.... and they fuck you again...
what are you supposed to do..???
me personally..i've been dealing with this shit for years.
some would say 5... 6...
but i've been on some 'forgive a muh-fucker' shit for like.. 10 years..
and i get fucked everytime.. 2, 3, 4, times..
and im still there.. still supportive.
still the nice guy....
accused...
heh... that's some shit..
how the fuck....can you do that shit..
how can you be so......blind....
i did everything... EVERY-fucking-THING that you asked..
but yet... im still not god enough..
is it all good.. no.. because i'll forever hurt..
but maybe its my fault.. maybe i like setting myself up for some fucked up shit..
and maybe this whole time i've been talking out of my ass...
i dont like sharing my feelings.. but im a very emotional person..
go figure..
is it something i have to work through...
fuck yea...
should i sever ties...
if im asked to...
do i want to...
no...
do i see a reason to..
no...
do i think it will happen...
my views have gotten me in enough trouble already...
so yea.. this is probly my last post.
the children can have their fun...
and the rumors can continue...
the 'talking out the side of your mouth' shit will die down..
hopefully..
but hey.. im just me... am i god.. and does it matter..
.......i dont know anymore..