In the proceading of these last two hours... i found out im a nerd.
uh. here we go
1. AP bio is stressing me out like crazy. iv never studied this much in my whole life. Everyday after school... and all day in school durring classes.
2. I've been a bitch to my parents. But this last thing was them being stupid. Mrs.Swanson called cus i was late (one min) to class 2 times... her new polacy... and so they started to yell at me about why im not taking math seriously. then my dad desided to be his big bad controlling self again and hes waking me up at 4 45 every morning now... so i have enough time to exercise (he plans on watching me to make sure i do it) and play the piano. i told him im we'll see about that... im grounded anyway what are they gunna do to me? fuck parents. i mean we dont really have any problems till they start making stupid restrictions are rules.
3. i dont think me and cecily are best friends any more. shes best friends w/ alex... we havnt really talked in a super long while. and when that big scare happened a week or two ago i called gabby first. The thing is, i dont think i mind. since camp and all my little expoditions this summer we've just been drifting and now im kinda bobbing up and down, but its ok... i dont need a constant.
4. a big'ol thing happened last night. i was talking to him on the phone and he wanted to know about other guys and what i've done with them and stuff... it was so okward. we had a huge talk, like 3 hours. topics were covered; like if i tell him its like im answering back to him and he said he wants to know who ive been with... cus well, like you would tell a boy friend. the thing is i would just feel guilty about w/e and responsable to him but he dosnt live close enough to be my bf. anyway his point i guess was that he cares about me a lot and i completely return it... but the conversation ended with "alright i dont care" "what do you mean?" "you made me realize somthing. were just fuck buddies and i cant expect any more from you" that made me cry. the only boy who is worth crying over wont make you but it was so disapointing to hear and i told him that i dont want it to be that simple cus i dont feel that simply about him... it was like a fall just giving up... even though thats what makes sence.
anyway it was such an intense convo geez. i think i do love him though.
thats it.
i was gunna stay up and watch a movie but my dad desided to come in and check on me every so ofter. ass hole. so i guess im going to bed.
good night
.Y
1. AP bio is stressing me out like crazy. iv never studied this much in my whole life. Everyday after school... and all day in school durring classes.
2. I've been a bitch to my parents. But this last thing was them being stupid. Mrs.Swanson called cus i was late (one min) to class 2 times... her new polacy... and so they started to yell at me about why im not taking math seriously. then my dad desided to be his big bad controlling self again and hes waking me up at 4 45 every morning now... so i have enough time to exercise (he plans on watching me to make sure i do it) and play the piano. i told him im we'll see about that... im grounded anyway what are they gunna do to me? fuck parents. i mean we dont really have any problems till they start making stupid restrictions are rules.
3. i dont think me and cecily are best friends any more. shes best friends w/ alex... we havnt really talked in a super long while. and when that big scare happened a week or two ago i called gabby first. The thing is, i dont think i mind. since camp and all my little expoditions this summer we've just been drifting and now im kinda bobbing up and down, but its ok... i dont need a constant.
4. a big'ol thing happened last night. i was talking to him on the phone and he wanted to know about other guys and what i've done with them and stuff... it was so okward. we had a huge talk, like 3 hours. topics were covered; like if i tell him its like im answering back to him and he said he wants to know who ive been with... cus well, like you would tell a boy friend. the thing is i would just feel guilty about w/e and responsable to him but he dosnt live close enough to be my bf. anyway his point i guess was that he cares about me a lot and i completely return it... but the conversation ended with "alright i dont care" "what do you mean?" "you made me realize somthing. were just fuck buddies and i cant expect any more from you" that made me cry. the only boy who is worth crying over wont make you but it was so disapointing to hear and i told him that i dont want it to be that simple cus i dont feel that simply about him... it was like a fall just giving up... even though thats what makes sence.
anyway it was such an intense convo geez. i think i do love him though.
thats it.
i was gunna stay up and watch a movie but my dad desided to come in and check on me every so ofter. ass hole. so i guess im going to bed.
good night
.Y