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Tommow is my last day at the co-op! I don't know if it's going to be great or horrible, so trying not to expect anything. Last days are always weird. On Monday I start my new job as a cook at this French restaurant and coincidentally I start taking Effexor instead of Prozac. I HATE trying new medication. Nothing ever works and I usually feel worse. I just feel like I need to do SOMETHING.
On Prozac I got a bunch of weird things. My shoulders are itchy, I get headaches that even illegal painkillers from Mexico can't cure. I feel dizzy, stoned almost, and sometimes things get blurry. Also I've been developing a nervous tic where I want to pop my ears all the time, it's crazy. No one really notices because it's not an outward thing, but it really annoys me, it's like having OCD or something. I do feel happier though. I don't know if it's due to the changes in my life that I have been making or if it's the Prozac... Although I know that my anxiety is not getting better at all. I have been waking up in the morning feeling absolutely panicked for no reason and I'm still afraid to do a lot of normal things. Also getting dizziness and shakiness occasionally. I'm so sick of all this, I just want something to work so bad.
On Prozac I got a bunch of weird things. My shoulders are itchy, I get headaches that even illegal painkillers from Mexico can't cure. I feel dizzy, stoned almost, and sometimes things get blurry. Also I've been developing a nervous tic where I want to pop my ears all the time, it's crazy. No one really notices because it's not an outward thing, but it really annoys me, it's like having OCD or something. I do feel happier though. I don't know if it's due to the changes in my life that I have been making or if it's the Prozac... Although I know that my anxiety is not getting better at all. I have been waking up in the morning feeling absolutely panicked for no reason and I'm still afraid to do a lot of normal things. Also getting dizziness and shakiness occasionally. I'm so sick of all this, I just want something to work so bad.