LIFE AS IT SHOULD BE I GUESS
well da last 2 days has proven to me dat no matter how hard u try to remain a good person u cant win wit life i am a fuckin good person i put every1 before myself i go out of my way to make things easy 4 every1 else but i cant fuckin win wit dis so called life of mines i cant catch a fuckin break i cant have 1 damn thing b good at all not 1 fuckin thing my job sucks i have no god damn car and cant seem to catch a fuckin break on getting 1 my fuckin family sucks i fuckin hate life i fuckin hate it i cant take it no more not 1 more god damn day of dis shit i gotta find a way to fuckin fix dis fucked up life i have been dealt i just have to im dying inside every breath hurts more than da last and right now i dont really want any1 fuckin opinion or ur bullshit its gonna b ok shit has been fucked up 4 me since i was god i dont even know i know there r ppl worse off than me but every1 has a certain degree of different terrible lives dat they r leading and i refuse to go out and not experience a taste of what is considered a good life i just want a little peace just a little peace a little happiness well some real happiness not dis fake ass smile i put on everyday its like a piece of clothing now i put my socks shoes shirt personals and pants on oh and over on my couch is my smile and joke bag filled wit laughter dat ill need nothing is real any more i dont even know when im really happy or sad its all combined n dis horrible package u call da nice anissa i cant even cry myself to sleep any more i just cry myself into a headache then i cant sleep so i stay up and watch malcolm x well dat was last nite other nites its family guy n 1 nite everything i have gottin use to has been torn to fuckin shreds everything i luv has been taken away n 1 god damn nite i watched my already fucked up family b destroyed last nite and had no 1 to turn 2 4 advise or dat little its gonna b all good words of comfort but whateva ill just write n hear get my shit off my chest da best way i can and im just gonna separate myself from everything and everybody i have to fix my shit da only way i know how im just gonna go lead da life i have been avoiding 4 da last 10yrs u cant run from what kinda person u r destine to b i cant take all dat is happening to me so i need to go run around and do a little dirt to have a distraction whateva im ghost -NO1 LUVS U THEY ONLY LUV WHAT U CAN DO 4 DEM-