Loving the warmth of my bed
It is 11am and I've been awake since 630am working on my less than exciting structures homework which I just finished. ALELUYA !!
In any case, I've been apart from this journal of mine for a couple of weeks and I think it might be time to update on some rather personal stuff, mostly focused on my boy and some friends.
Somehow, it seems all of my friends are growing...getting older and wiser, settling and starting to become real adults. On the one hand I have Jessie who recently informed me, to my extreme shock, that she's planning to get married to the guy she has been dating for over a year now, and the wedding has been unofficially set for August of this year. All I can say is that I trust her decision and that I wish her happiness in all she does. She's one of the best people I've ever met. She deserves a great guy that loves her and no other, and I hope this guy is grateful of the wonder he has at his reach. Hopefully, I'll get to make it to the wedding this summer. I guess it is just one more thing that presses me to make early plans for this coming summer.
On the other hand I have my friend Ramos back in Venezuela who I always envisioned as the typical young straight guy that would not settle for anyone for a while...but I was wrong....everytime we talk he keeps telling me all about his girlfriend and how much he loves her and feels like they're gonna end up marrying in the future !! I mean....what the hell?? One day he was single and loving it, and suddenly he gets this girl, falls for her and already thinks of marriage....we'll see. Wish him luck though.
About my Chicago friends....I recently celebrated Isida's birthday in Soundbar and it was a fun night with just me and my friends....since my Craig was also attending a birthday thingy organized for his friend Chris. I had certainly missed hanging out with my friends and just my friends outside of class....first time this semester!!
About my other used-to-be-friends...well...I still look back to this day about the things that were said and done to break us apart...and all I find is remorse, regret, revenge, etc....which is why I decided to pull away before these feelings would turn into something worse. It has been a hard thing to share the same spaces with those who used to be good friends of mine....but now I only get to see them pass me by while I try to look away as do they. It is so awkward sometimes though, even more because we have common friends that make the whole detachment need a little harder. Not even six months ago I was best friends with these people....not more than six months ago I was crying in their apartment due to the great frustration I felt after I broke up with Nick ::Sigh::
As for my boy....what can I say....he makes me happy like no one else does. He turns me into an emotional person who's able to cry, laugh and smile in the space of seconds. He seems cuter and cuter with each passing day and all the more fun to be around.
I find myself alone today since he had to travel to his hometown: Indianapolis to pick up the new computer his parents got for him. I won't be seeing him till later tonight...sometime around 9pm and I already miss him like crazy even when he's been gone for only a couple of hours.
I've been thinking a lot lately and I've been pondering whether or not to tell him I want to live with him. We sorta of live together now...but I want to make it official...a place we can call our own...at least for the time being. He's not certain about his future place for next year and I haven't made plans to extend my stay at the dorms....so...maybe and just maybe it is time for me to propose this to him and see what happens. I don't think he will say NO...but that doesn't stop me from feeling nervous.
Anyways....time to go and get something to eat.
Hope you're doing ok DJ...drop a message you little bitch.
Same goes for you Richard....haven't heard from you in a long time. Hope you're ok.
Hugs to everyone else....and good luck.
Niels "living together with my Craig....priceless"
In any case, I've been apart from this journal of mine for a couple of weeks and I think it might be time to update on some rather personal stuff, mostly focused on my boy and some friends.
Somehow, it seems all of my friends are growing...getting older and wiser, settling and starting to become real adults. On the one hand I have Jessie who recently informed me, to my extreme shock, that she's planning to get married to the guy she has been dating for over a year now, and the wedding has been unofficially set for August of this year. All I can say is that I trust her decision and that I wish her happiness in all she does. She's one of the best people I've ever met. She deserves a great guy that loves her and no other, and I hope this guy is grateful of the wonder he has at his reach. Hopefully, I'll get to make it to the wedding this summer. I guess it is just one more thing that presses me to make early plans for this coming summer.
On the other hand I have my friend Ramos back in Venezuela who I always envisioned as the typical young straight guy that would not settle for anyone for a while...but I was wrong....everytime we talk he keeps telling me all about his girlfriend and how much he loves her and feels like they're gonna end up marrying in the future !! I mean....what the hell?? One day he was single and loving it, and suddenly he gets this girl, falls for her and already thinks of marriage....we'll see. Wish him luck though.
About my Chicago friends....I recently celebrated Isida's birthday in Soundbar and it was a fun night with just me and my friends....since my Craig was also attending a birthday thingy organized for his friend Chris. I had certainly missed hanging out with my friends and just my friends outside of class....first time this semester!!
About my other used-to-be-friends...well...I still look back to this day about the things that were said and done to break us apart...and all I find is remorse, regret, revenge, etc....which is why I decided to pull away before these feelings would turn into something worse. It has been a hard thing to share the same spaces with those who used to be good friends of mine....but now I only get to see them pass me by while I try to look away as do they. It is so awkward sometimes though, even more because we have common friends that make the whole detachment need a little harder. Not even six months ago I was best friends with these people....not more than six months ago I was crying in their apartment due to the great frustration I felt after I broke up with Nick ::Sigh::
As for my boy....what can I say....he makes me happy like no one else does. He turns me into an emotional person who's able to cry, laugh and smile in the space of seconds. He seems cuter and cuter with each passing day and all the more fun to be around.
I find myself alone today since he had to travel to his hometown: Indianapolis to pick up the new computer his parents got for him. I won't be seeing him till later tonight...sometime around 9pm and I already miss him like crazy even when he's been gone for only a couple of hours.
I've been thinking a lot lately and I've been pondering whether or not to tell him I want to live with him. We sorta of live together now...but I want to make it official...a place we can call our own...at least for the time being. He's not certain about his future place for next year and I haven't made plans to extend my stay at the dorms....so...maybe and just maybe it is time for me to propose this to him and see what happens. I don't think he will say NO...but that doesn't stop me from feeling nervous.
Anyways....time to go and get something to eat.
Hope you're doing ok DJ...drop a message you little bitch.
Same goes for you Richard....haven't heard from you in a long time. Hope you're ok.
Hugs to everyone else....and good luck.
Niels "living together with my Craig....priceless"