It just takes some time
If I wasnt me, Id love to be you.
I hung out with Ashlee szot, Kevin Roberts, and "Mean" Chris Garcia (even though last night he was anything but). They tried there best to cheer me up, and most the time it works, all I ask for is your good intentions. We went to Kevins first he put on the song the middle and I cried and cried, there was no pat on the baxk, no advice, just sitting there looking down, at the moment, exactly what I needed. He let me take the cd home. The we went to Ashlee's. Looked on the computer, I saw an unphotoshopped picture of Madi, and it made me feel soooo much better.
Then we went on the big swing in her backyard. Put on Dashboard. Sat in silence. Started singing, and then we started screaming the lyrics to the top of our lungs, and I needed it, it felt so good. I meant every word. It got cold so we got a blanket, I sandwiched myself between Ash and Chris and just cried.
Ill put the pictures on later this week.
Chris and I went in the kitchen and had a good talk about Brad and Michelle. How we got fucked over. But I dont really feel "fucked over", and I dont really feel like I love him. Theres too much hurt, much too much, to have any more room left in my heart. Although he will always be in it, I wont ever see him the same way.
I hope he's happy, above all things.