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[neath_the_waves]

Love is bloody murder

poets think

it's tender and sweet

elevating

but

you have to crawl through the mud

you have to be tough

you have killed me over and over again, torn us apart, torn our love to shreds

you say you can't help it

that you're a monster

and you fucking are

I'm strong enough to be your whipping boy, but I'm smart enough not to

at least not twice

i cannot be the one who pays the price for everything that's gone wrong

when my crime is loving you

I worry this world has burned the kindness out of me

Turned a gentle heart to stone

Put me so far from everyone

But i keep reaching deeper

until everything is gone

love isn't always pretty

it's gritted teeth and scar tissue

broken bones and broken illusions

wrapping your arms around what's left

but monsters hurt too

I'm not ready to give up on you