Was Worried There For A Minute ......
...... as I had started to feel seriously slipping into depression. Anyone who has suffered from clinical depression will know, once away from the edge of that black hole, you will do anything not to be back there again. I had started to see the edge of the black hole again somewhere in my future, thankfully, this evening at least, I have pushed it further away after giving myself a damn good talking to, discussing things with my husband over a two hour drive out in the countryside with fresh air and lots of greenery to look at, and now I feel a bit more positive about things. I had been trying to work out whether I needed to go back on anti D's again or not, its been ages since I had a flare up like this, October 2005 to be exact.
Tomorrow we have the meeting with the managers and police to discuss and plan of action, hopefully we'll agree on something within an hour because I dont really think I want to be in a meeting longer than that discussing the harassment issues we are now facing. Then its a busy day ahead planned, Joseph has a solicitors appointment, we have several boxes down from the loft to be sorted through, unpacked and re-packed again into stronger boxes and I have to sort out dinner, all before 5pm when the kids go off to SJA Cadets again.
I definitely felt much better being away from the house, the street and the problem living down the road. Singing along with the radio songs, talking about the future, making plans for things to see and do when we get there, visiting some of our old haunts too, should be loads of fun.
So I am going to bed shortly, Dom, Lionel's girlfriend asked if she can stay tonight, so I now need to go and make absolutely certain she is now missing school tomorrow first before I agree, and Harvey is already asleep. We bought all the kids some chocolate while we out driving so now Ivan and Imogen are a bit hyper and playing quite loudly chasing each other about upstairs. They are having fun but I dont want Harvey woken up so need to nip that in the bud.
I have checked on the TdF fibre prizes, they are beautiful so will wash and dry them tomorrow. Its been raining all week so a bit awkward to dry stuff with all the boxes and chaos everywhere so tomorrow that will be done one way or the other so I can post photographs at the weekend. Now I am off to bed.
Tomorrow we have the meeting with the managers and police to discuss and plan of action, hopefully we'll agree on something within an hour because I dont really think I want to be in a meeting longer than that discussing the harassment issues we are now facing. Then its a busy day ahead planned, Joseph has a solicitors appointment, we have several boxes down from the loft to be sorted through, unpacked and re-packed again into stronger boxes and I have to sort out dinner, all before 5pm when the kids go off to SJA Cadets again.
I definitely felt much better being away from the house, the street and the problem living down the road. Singing along with the radio songs, talking about the future, making plans for things to see and do when we get there, visiting some of our old haunts too, should be loads of fun.
So I am going to bed shortly, Dom, Lionel's girlfriend asked if she can stay tonight, so I now need to go and make absolutely certain she is now missing school tomorrow first before I agree, and Harvey is already asleep. We bought all the kids some chocolate while we out driving so now Ivan and Imogen are a bit hyper and playing quite loudly chasing each other about upstairs. They are having fun but I dont want Harvey woken up so need to nip that in the bud.
I have checked on the TdF fibre prizes, they are beautiful so will wash and dry them tomorrow. Its been raining all week so a bit awkward to dry stuff with all the boxes and chaos everywhere so tomorrow that will be done one way or the other so I can post photographs at the weekend. Now I am off to bed.