Call to all of those
I haven't posted in livejournal in a while
I felt like no one was reading
Rawr I am so alone whine whine whine
But anyways, I figure most anyone who bothered to friend the new journal might actually read it
More to the point
I'm at a better place these days.
I have a car, I know a few people locally, I'm bound to be moving ahead in my career very shortly
Next is college (again)
Maybe I'll stick around and learn something this time
i've been burning every weekend repairing the house I used to live in, up in Charlotte.
Saying goodbye to the place that was home for so long.
Burying the past.
I don't have many people who would even be able to remember my name in that city now, and maybe 2 or 3 people to call friends.
I'm not even sure what the number is, honestly.
Redmond has largely faded into the realm of utter fantasy...
I'm going to be in the Atlanta area for the next year or so at least.
I'm still smoking, the occasional breaks I take are getting harder, and shorter. It's probably about time to quit for good.
I haven't played DDR much lately, i've been too tired and too busy
With the weekends spent working more, the extra projects from work, and the 6AM shift... I don't do much for myself these days.
I spend too much time killing time.
I haven't been drawing, I've barely been writing, I haven't even been doing preparatory excercises or stretching for parkour in months
I'm becoming a person defined by my career and by my possessions, and I resent it.
Once all debts are paid and all obligations reduced to voluntary favors of kindness... I am leaving this nonsense behind.
My detachment has faded... I no longer struggle to retain composure in the face of a multitude of insults and annoyances... I am genuinely not bothered by much anymore, laugh a lot more, and am reasonably social.
In certain regards, I am coming into a mastery of things that I have long studied.
I haven't been to church in far too long, nor have I been meditating or praying very often.
As always... there is no finality, and it is only a matter of time.
Time... and focus.
I felt like no one was reading
Rawr I am so alone whine whine whine
But anyways, I figure most anyone who bothered to friend the new journal might actually read it
More to the point
I'm at a better place these days.
I have a car, I know a few people locally, I'm bound to be moving ahead in my career very shortly
Next is college (again)
Maybe I'll stick around and learn something this time
i've been burning every weekend repairing the house I used to live in, up in Charlotte.
Saying goodbye to the place that was home for so long.
Burying the past.
I don't have many people who would even be able to remember my name in that city now, and maybe 2 or 3 people to call friends.
I'm not even sure what the number is, honestly.
Redmond has largely faded into the realm of utter fantasy...
I'm going to be in the Atlanta area for the next year or so at least.
I'm still smoking, the occasional breaks I take are getting harder, and shorter. It's probably about time to quit for good.
I haven't played DDR much lately, i've been too tired and too busy
With the weekends spent working more, the extra projects from work, and the 6AM shift... I don't do much for myself these days.
I spend too much time killing time.
I haven't been drawing, I've barely been writing, I haven't even been doing preparatory excercises or stretching for parkour in months
I'm becoming a person defined by my career and by my possessions, and I resent it.
Once all debts are paid and all obligations reduced to voluntary favors of kindness... I am leaving this nonsense behind.
My detachment has faded... I no longer struggle to retain composure in the face of a multitude of insults and annoyances... I am genuinely not bothered by much anymore, laugh a lot more, and am reasonably social.
In certain regards, I am coming into a mastery of things that I have long studied.
I haven't been to church in far too long, nor have I been meditating or praying very often.
As always... there is no finality, and it is only a matter of time.
Time... and focus.