hey! they dont love you like i love you
oh, i've hardly taken a breath since coming home, and now my bags are packed for the bahamas and i'm waking up in approx. 3 hours to catch a flight to paradise(ish). i miss school terribly, even though there's so many things to see and places to go and people to reunite with in seattle. on the agenda when i return home (which feels different and even claustraphobic at times, so fucking bizarre): nest with christine (#1 priority), see mo and kimmy and brendan and jen etc etc, and do generally northwest-esque things. because i miss washington and all it entails, i really do, even though it seems i can't help missing texas in all it's wild splendour even more.
brad is home and in slight pain, but generally in good spirits and delightful to talk to. at random moments during the day i'll find myself with a certain memory in my head and then with an unavoidable urge to hold him and wake up next to him and it's only horrible because it's so utterly unachievable (okay, so only for the next several weeks). other times i'll get off the phone and feel unbelievably happy and realize how good it feels to care about someone in such an intense way. i guess it's relatively new, and thus somehow even more enriching...or something.
i went christmas shopping several days in a row and somehow found myself with more purchases for me than anyone else. oops. but most of the essentials are taken care of, and i found some ridiculously pretty clothes, so it's not actually too much of a problem.
it's raining and lovely in seattle but i'm soon departing for sunny skies and warmth and cousins who i cant wait to see (obviously the biggest plus to the situation!). and my itunes just randomly found "moon dreams" by miles davis and despite some sort of constant discontent with my surroundings that i can't quite figure out/pin down, all is good. i wish happy, fantastic holidays to everyone ♥
brad is home and in slight pain, but generally in good spirits and delightful to talk to. at random moments during the day i'll find myself with a certain memory in my head and then with an unavoidable urge to hold him and wake up next to him and it's only horrible because it's so utterly unachievable (okay, so only for the next several weeks). other times i'll get off the phone and feel unbelievably happy and realize how good it feels to care about someone in such an intense way. i guess it's relatively new, and thus somehow even more enriching...or something.
i went christmas shopping several days in a row and somehow found myself with more purchases for me than anyone else. oops. but most of the essentials are taken care of, and i found some ridiculously pretty clothes, so it's not actually too much of a problem.
it's raining and lovely in seattle but i'm soon departing for sunny skies and warmth and cousins who i cant wait to see (obviously the biggest plus to the situation!). and my itunes just randomly found "moon dreams" by miles davis and despite some sort of constant discontent with my surroundings that i can't quite figure out/pin down, all is good. i wish happy, fantastic holidays to everyone ♥