i bought a ticket to austin city limits today but i dont have a ride, this should be interesting.
so life is ridiculously confusing but generally pleasant. thursday at pub i hung out with sean britton (who knows fucking everyone, by the way, and can always get beer for free wherever he goes) and some boy named addison who would tell me after every statement i made: "that's hot." he was huge and giant-like and i was intrigued by him but he invited me to go shooting with him today and so i dont really know what to think haha. i smoked outside with some random kids and bryce kept waving to me and oh yeah, i halfassed drunkenly talked to brad for the first time since dis-o. interesting. friday i actually had a real conversation with brad after seeing him pretty much every day and always nonchalantly looking at eachother haha so that was interesting as well. we were at the barbecue for new dj's for the rice radio station and i couldnt really deal with the fact that he liked fucking amazing music and couldnt seem to get to be more perfect. then i went to shepherd, played for 20 minutes, and sat in my practice room for 40 without touching the piano and eventually left. then we got wasted and went to sid and i danced a lot with canek and i think he thinks i'm into him but i just want to be friends, oh boys boys. i also recall chugging a lot of beers, which i actually find so so fun. i think there's something wrong with me.
i woke up saturday morning and did absolutely nothing all day. thats the worst thing about partying for me i think: my form of being hungover basically means i do nothing productive and waste shitloads of time. and look at the hundreds of pictures we have from the night before haha. then last night was completely out of hand, i got so so wasted at 10:30pm or something but had excessive amounts of everclear punch as the night continuted, and i'm pretty sure i told brad a lot of things i should not have. fuck, i'm so tactless sometimes when i'm drunk. however, i do remember that i said one civil thing, which was "i feel like we should hang out sometime"...which resulted in us going out to lunch today and him paying and me being really confused if it was a date or not. anyway, though i dont remember most of the night i do remember that it was fun while it lasted, there were so many good people and i kept running into people i sort of know (which is sometimes the most fun) and i apparently took a lot of pictures of girls chests, hahaha. carey found me and we went on a mission to find jake and make out with him...that didnt work out, thank god, because he's hot but - no. erin noel kept kissing my cheek and emily made out with redhead maggie and i made out with ilse's face and we're all straight, hm. then birte walked me home at 1:30 because i was completely out of control and i passed out wearing shorts as a shirt and sean britton called my phone 34589348 times. and then i woke up thismorning and went out to lunch with brad.
um, i wish he wasnt so appealing, because i dont know if he's that into me. i mean, he plays the fucking accordion. he listens to blonde redhead and is one of the most surprisingly attractive boys i've ever met. he's from tenessee and talks about doing cancer research all summer and looking for grad schools and learning swedish and starting a band and being high and making his dessert taste like acid. i cant fucking deal with this.
i guess whatever happens we can always be friends. i'm just dissatisfied with the current up in the air nature of things because i dont want to get attached if nothing is gonna happen. all his friends and my friends think we'd be perfect but when he drove me back today it was "see you around" and i dont really understand whats going on in his mind. i guess i'll just wait and see. because we run into each other at least once a day and we're at the same parties sometimes so there's bound to be something that happens.
i tell erin noel everything but he's a boy and he doesnt really see things in the same way and he doesnt really get it. i love mausami but she made out with lots of boys last night and is absorbed with that haha so i dont really know who else to tell. christine of course but phone is so hard. and i dont really feel like talking to anyone else because i dont trust them enough yet. (except for all my livejournal friends, ha)
oh by the way, classes are okay but i hate going to them because theyre not as fun as pretty much anything else i can do around here.
it's nights like these i just want a cigarette and the guts to call a boy and magically say all the right things.
i cant stop listening to blonde redhead.
i woke up saturday morning and did absolutely nothing all day. thats the worst thing about partying for me i think: my form of being hungover basically means i do nothing productive and waste shitloads of time. and look at the hundreds of pictures we have from the night before haha. then last night was completely out of hand, i got so so wasted at 10:30pm or something but had excessive amounts of everclear punch as the night continuted, and i'm pretty sure i told brad a lot of things i should not have. fuck, i'm so tactless sometimes when i'm drunk. however, i do remember that i said one civil thing, which was "i feel like we should hang out sometime"...which resulted in us going out to lunch today and him paying and me being really confused if it was a date or not. anyway, though i dont remember most of the night i do remember that it was fun while it lasted, there were so many good people and i kept running into people i sort of know (which is sometimes the most fun) and i apparently took a lot of pictures of girls chests, hahaha. carey found me and we went on a mission to find jake and make out with him...that didnt work out, thank god, because he's hot but - no. erin noel kept kissing my cheek and emily made out with redhead maggie and i made out with ilse's face and we're all straight, hm. then birte walked me home at 1:30 because i was completely out of control and i passed out wearing shorts as a shirt and sean britton called my phone 34589348 times. and then i woke up thismorning and went out to lunch with brad.
um, i wish he wasnt so appealing, because i dont know if he's that into me. i mean, he plays the fucking accordion. he listens to blonde redhead and is one of the most surprisingly attractive boys i've ever met. he's from tenessee and talks about doing cancer research all summer and looking for grad schools and learning swedish and starting a band and being high and making his dessert taste like acid. i cant fucking deal with this.
i guess whatever happens we can always be friends. i'm just dissatisfied with the current up in the air nature of things because i dont want to get attached if nothing is gonna happen. all his friends and my friends think we'd be perfect but when he drove me back today it was "see you around" and i dont really understand whats going on in his mind. i guess i'll just wait and see. because we run into each other at least once a day and we're at the same parties sometimes so there's bound to be something that happens.
i tell erin noel everything but he's a boy and he doesnt really see things in the same way and he doesnt really get it. i love mausami but she made out with lots of boys last night and is absorbed with that haha so i dont really know who else to tell. christine of course but phone is so hard. and i dont really feel like talking to anyone else because i dont trust them enough yet. (except for all my livejournal friends, ha)
oh by the way, classes are okay but i hate going to them because theyre not as fun as pretty much anything else i can do around here.
it's nights like these i just want a cigarette and the guts to call a boy and magically say all the right things.
i cant stop listening to blonde redhead.