in solitude where we are least alone
man, school really really sucks. fuck that place. i really really dont wanna go back tomorrow. its like self-inflicted torture. today sucked mostly except i like being at my house with friends. even though its hecka awkward cuz its hella boring and nothing to do. but i liked it today. i told my dad i got a ticket and he didnt even trip at all. thats pretty cool. i hope my mom's the same. school fuck eeew hate it there. wish i didnt think so much about stuff i cant change if the answer to "not ever?" is no or just no answer which means the same thing as no. but i do and it never leaves and i dunno... all bad. i went shopping 3 times this week. thats kinda dumb but i liked it and even though i dont have any money anymore it was ok. i forgot to get a job with aron after school today. i hope he doesn't hate me too. um what else? i got drunk all week pretty much b4 school started, so thats why i didn't see most people for hella days, i was incapacitated or something, obviously i'm still drunk... jk. i wish. um. i hate how sorry just isnt enough ever. its just a stupid word like all of these. meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh i'm gonna smoke a bowl in my pipe which i've had for a year and isn't broken yet (crosses fingers/knocks on wood). meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh meh... cheers, heres to life!