nervous
i feel bad...my best friend tiff is in the hospital...or soon to be...she has something called itp i think...her platelets are real low...meaning whenever she gets bruised it turns a bright deep red with purple...basically if she gets poked kinda hard she gets a bruise the size of a silver dollar on her skin...that's scary...well most of my friends are getting illnesses and diseases (not stds)...so i'm gonna work up the courage to go and get a blood test...besides cancer runs in my mom's side of the family...i'm afraid that the test is going to hurt...i'm not afraid if they find anything...not scared of dying...just afraid of pain...i hope that if they do find anything...that they won't make me wait...i would just want to know right then and there...well i'm off to the doctor's office...