not much to say....

[nearly_dead15]

I really don't have much to say...but I'm bored...my exboyfriend Jesse C. called me twice today...he's havin major problems at home...he's no longer going out with Jayde...they had to break up because their parents didn't approve of one another...Jayde was 12 and Jesse is 15....I guess I can understand why...he always calls me when he's upset...I asked him if he saw refuge in me...he said yes...because i'm the only one who understands him...he's a suicide type...he tells me that he wants death every single day...I always comfort him and talk him out of doing it...besides we kinda made a pat...he doesn't commit suicide before the age of 18 and niether do I...well I made a promise to him and he made a promise to me...lol...I noticed something today...I'm glad that I broke up with Chris because well he was smaller than me...I mean people thought that he was anirexic (I dont' know how you spell it) and well it was bad enough that people thought the same about me...but about my boyfriend...weird...but that's not the reason why I broke up with him...I broke up with him because I didn't feel safe in his arms...I didn't feel secure...but I felt so sure and so safe in Jesse's arms...but Jesse said that he's not going to date anymore...that's he's only going to flirt with girls...and that's it...I want to tell him how I feel about him so very badly but I can't find the words...I mean I get so ready to tell him...but at the last minute I chicken out...but I have to leave...if you have any advice then please tell me...seriously I need help...thank you...bye

So Thankful That You Read This,
Kittie