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just fine?
yeah i mean it was good ive just been in my head too much
much too much
ah yes
i'm sorry
thats ok
i think it takes me a long time to process things and let them go
i was just talking to my friend about that
apparently i have to obsess and torture myself a little before i can decide its time
haha. do you pick apart things in your head?
sometimes
yeah i guess
i have a really hard time understanding things sometimes
especially emotional things
like what, if you don't mind my asking?
umm i have to think about this. its sort of a convoluted idea
like
when i was younger emotions were very intense, very fast, both coming and going
and now its a lot slower and i get really hung up on the why aspect
or the what went wrong and why
and sometimes
this part is hard to explain i donno
i think i understand so far
1:34am
i think sometimes the lack of understanding, or the complete disagreement, drives me to try to show my side of it
sometimes too much
but most of the time in situations like this, my side of it is not the point at all
and it doesnt really matter what i think or how i feel about something because its just the way it is
but because i still feel so sure that a wrong turn was made, i want to keep at it because i want things to be correct
but even if i feel pretty confident that i'd be right in the end, it still doesn't matter. it's like trying to show someone something on my side of a door that hasn't been opened
and for all i know the person that was on the other side of the door may not even be there anymore
man that got a little deeper than i meant it to
yeah i mean it was good ive just been in my head too much
much too much
ah yes
i'm sorry
thats ok
i think it takes me a long time to process things and let them go
i was just talking to my friend about that
apparently i have to obsess and torture myself a little before i can decide its time
haha. do you pick apart things in your head?
sometimes
yeah i guess
i have a really hard time understanding things sometimes
especially emotional things
like what, if you don't mind my asking?
umm i have to think about this. its sort of a convoluted idea
like
when i was younger emotions were very intense, very fast, both coming and going
and now its a lot slower and i get really hung up on the why aspect
or the what went wrong and why
and sometimes
this part is hard to explain i donno
i think i understand so far
1:34am
i think sometimes the lack of understanding, or the complete disagreement, drives me to try to show my side of it
sometimes too much
but most of the time in situations like this, my side of it is not the point at all
and it doesnt really matter what i think or how i feel about something because its just the way it is
but because i still feel so sure that a wrong turn was made, i want to keep at it because i want things to be correct
but even if i feel pretty confident that i'd be right in the end, it still doesn't matter. it's like trying to show someone something on my side of a door that hasn't been opened
and for all i know the person that was on the other side of the door may not even be there anymore
man that got a little deeper than i meant it to