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after not going out for what seems like forever, sarah, matt, dmitriy, & i went to friday's last night. it was so fun, maybe just because we hadn't done it in so long. but yeah. we need to hang out more often!
i've been clashing with my parents, especially my dad, more than usual recently, & it's leading me to want to move out. not that i don't appreciate all that they do for me, i do, it's just...sigh. i know that i have more freedom living here than a lot of people have living at home, but it's still not the same as having my own place. although i suppose i still do have my own place, i just haven't paid for it in almost a year.
the problem with having the impulse to move out is that i know it's not plausible right now. i'm barely getting any hours at work, which is fine, but it also means that i don't have extra money lying around. plus i'm taking a class this summer & i'm planning to take another full-time semester in the fall, so. it's not like i can really take more hours. or...i guess i could, but i'm trying not to set myself up for failure.
there's another problem, too: i want to live with matt - eventually - & he's definitely not ready yet, in any way. finances would be so tight, & i know from experience that that can bring any existing issues to the surface. not that i think matt & i have serious underlying issues, but...i don't want to do anything to jeopardize our relationship. which means that, for possibly the first time in my life, i have to exercise a little patience.
let me just say, i don't wanna! stupid delayed gratification.
i'm applying to oakland u for winter semester, i'm excited about that. i'm also super nervous, not necessarily about getting in - since my gpa at occ is 3.96 - but about the fact that it'll be a whole new experience. the speech class i took with sarah eased me into class at occ, but i don't know anyone at ou other than dmitriy, & we wouldn't be taking the same classes, besides the fact that he's not taking class at all right now. i've actually never even seen the campus of ou, i'd have to figure all of that out.
nerrrrrves. i haven't even sent in the application yet & i'm already freaking out. but! i'm so ready for this new phase of my life. i'm gonna get a goddamn stupid degree if it kills me. & it'd best not kill me, since all my efforts would go to waste.
yeah.
i'm turning twenty-five next month & i'm just now figuring out things i should've known when i was eighteen. i'm trying not to feel like the last seven years of my life were useless, but it's kind of difficult. i know that my actions have gotten me here, i just wish that the road could've been easier.
ah well. there's nothing i can do about the past at this point other than try not to forget the lessons it's taught me. seriously. my biggest life lesson = don't marry will. & don't buy a condo. & especially don't do both at the same time.
i've been clashing with my parents, especially my dad, more than usual recently, & it's leading me to want to move out. not that i don't appreciate all that they do for me, i do, it's just...sigh. i know that i have more freedom living here than a lot of people have living at home, but it's still not the same as having my own place. although i suppose i still do have my own place, i just haven't paid for it in almost a year.
the problem with having the impulse to move out is that i know it's not plausible right now. i'm barely getting any hours at work, which is fine, but it also means that i don't have extra money lying around. plus i'm taking a class this summer & i'm planning to take another full-time semester in the fall, so. it's not like i can really take more hours. or...i guess i could, but i'm trying not to set myself up for failure.
there's another problem, too: i want to live with matt - eventually - & he's definitely not ready yet, in any way. finances would be so tight, & i know from experience that that can bring any existing issues to the surface. not that i think matt & i have serious underlying issues, but...i don't want to do anything to jeopardize our relationship. which means that, for possibly the first time in my life, i have to exercise a little patience.
let me just say, i don't wanna! stupid delayed gratification.
i'm applying to oakland u for winter semester, i'm excited about that. i'm also super nervous, not necessarily about getting in - since my gpa at occ is 3.96 - but about the fact that it'll be a whole new experience. the speech class i took with sarah eased me into class at occ, but i don't know anyone at ou other than dmitriy, & we wouldn't be taking the same classes, besides the fact that he's not taking class at all right now. i've actually never even seen the campus of ou, i'd have to figure all of that out.
nerrrrrves. i haven't even sent in the application yet & i'm already freaking out. but! i'm so ready for this new phase of my life. i'm gonna get a goddamn stupid degree if it kills me. & it'd best not kill me, since all my efforts would go to waste.
yeah.
i'm turning twenty-five next month & i'm just now figuring out things i should've known when i was eighteen. i'm trying not to feel like the last seven years of my life were useless, but it's kind of difficult. i know that my actions have gotten me here, i just wish that the road could've been easier.
ah well. there's nothing i can do about the past at this point other than try not to forget the lessons it's taught me. seriously. my biggest life lesson = don't marry will. & don't buy a condo. & especially don't do both at the same time.