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i know, i know...it's been forever.
where once i used to be willing to pour myself out into this journal, for anyone & everyone to see, lately i haven't wanted to be as forthcoming. there's more at stake, i think, than there has been in the past. more feelings that could get hurt.
in december, i went to colorado to visit a guy i'd met online around thanksgiving. unfortunately, he was sick the whole time i was there, i ended up spending more time with his parents than with him. (because he lives with them. i caught up on my dr. phil & oprah watching with his mom...suffice it to say, i was very bored.) he's not a bad guy, just not the guy for me.
also in december sarah & i finished our speech class, i ended up with an a-, so i don't feel like such a failure on the education front. i know it's only one class but i'm hoping it'll count as getting my feet wet & i'll be able to go on to bigger & better classes. such as perhaps calculus or physics. because those are scary to me. & i think i'm going to start angling toward pharmacy school. so calculus & physics are necessary to get on with my life.
as soon as i got back from colorado, something started developing between me & matt, which i completely wasn't expecting. in fact, i don't know if there's much that i expected less. but yeah...it was obvious from the start that the me-will-matt triangle would cause trouble. & cause trouble it did.
basically, there were a couple weeks of insanity, & now it's mostly settled down. which...thank goodness. drama can be interesting but it's exhausting, physically & emotionally. plus, the results of the drama are much more satisfying than the drama itself was.
so that's my life in a nutshell. lately, i've been hanging out with matt a lot, playing rockband - which is so effing addictive! oh my goodness! - or else working or sleeping. more or less good times, though there's still some emotional baggage being worked through. i have faith that it'll be sorted out eventually. or at least i hope.
on that note, i'm tired, it's late. i just thought i should throw a quick update into cyberspace to let everyone know i'm alive.
where once i used to be willing to pour myself out into this journal, for anyone & everyone to see, lately i haven't wanted to be as forthcoming. there's more at stake, i think, than there has been in the past. more feelings that could get hurt.
in december, i went to colorado to visit a guy i'd met online around thanksgiving. unfortunately, he was sick the whole time i was there, i ended up spending more time with his parents than with him. (because he lives with them. i caught up on my dr. phil & oprah watching with his mom...suffice it to say, i was very bored.) he's not a bad guy, just not the guy for me.
also in december sarah & i finished our speech class, i ended up with an a-, so i don't feel like such a failure on the education front. i know it's only one class but i'm hoping it'll count as getting my feet wet & i'll be able to go on to bigger & better classes. such as perhaps calculus or physics. because those are scary to me. & i think i'm going to start angling toward pharmacy school. so calculus & physics are necessary to get on with my life.
as soon as i got back from colorado, something started developing between me & matt, which i completely wasn't expecting. in fact, i don't know if there's much that i expected less. but yeah...it was obvious from the start that the me-will-matt triangle would cause trouble. & cause trouble it did.
basically, there were a couple weeks of insanity, & now it's mostly settled down. which...thank goodness. drama can be interesting but it's exhausting, physically & emotionally. plus, the results of the drama are much more satisfying than the drama itself was.
so that's my life in a nutshell. lately, i've been hanging out with matt a lot, playing rockband - which is so effing addictive! oh my goodness! - or else working or sleeping. more or less good times, though there's still some emotional baggage being worked through. i have faith that it'll be sorted out eventually. or at least i hope.
on that note, i'm tired, it's late. i just thought i should throw a quick update into cyberspace to let everyone know i'm alive.