dishearten
if you want to get out of my life this way. you should have done that 2 years back.
i thought we are friends. or should i say, i thought we WERE friends.
short and unconcerned sms to notify me about it and then disappearing without any notice. wow. should i be surprised?
or should i say that i sort of seen it coming during your trip overseas.
dont even try to get back into my life after this. cause this time im not going to turn back.
im upset. i wrote that out of rage. but i just feel sad. i know i sound pathetic saying this. i lost quite a number of close friends, dear friends, friends who i hold close at my heart within these 2 years. maybe i wouldnt call them best friends since i doubt i really ever had one. but yes, i feel pathetic as well. you were the one i hold dearest to. much more than the girls, much more than the monkeys. the one i thought i could always turn to. but i lost you. even as a friend. somehow i just loathe how fragile the links i have with those ppl whom i used to love so damn much. i used to give my all into friendships until lately. its really hard. i'd always have this facade around me, as if everything is nothing. as if i've seen so much in life. cause i just dont want to let myself sink in so hard into friendships and get hurt all over again. you know, you were like the brother i never had and the best friend that i thought i had. but seem like im just wrong yet again.
saw a short message from someone. i wonder,
are you talking about me or am i jumping the gun?
i dont know anymore.
my cough worsen though my sore throat became better.
and you know what, i hate you.
i thought we are friends. or should i say, i thought we WERE friends.
short and unconcerned sms to notify me about it and then disappearing without any notice. wow. should i be surprised?
or should i say that i sort of seen it coming during your trip overseas.
dont even try to get back into my life after this. cause this time im not going to turn back.
im upset. i wrote that out of rage. but i just feel sad. i know i sound pathetic saying this. i lost quite a number of close friends, dear friends, friends who i hold close at my heart within these 2 years. maybe i wouldnt call them best friends since i doubt i really ever had one. but yes, i feel pathetic as well. you were the one i hold dearest to. much more than the girls, much more than the monkeys. the one i thought i could always turn to. but i lost you. even as a friend. somehow i just loathe how fragile the links i have with those ppl whom i used to love so damn much. i used to give my all into friendships until lately. its really hard. i'd always have this facade around me, as if everything is nothing. as if i've seen so much in life. cause i just dont want to let myself sink in so hard into friendships and get hurt all over again. you know, you were like the brother i never had and the best friend that i thought i had. but seem like im just wrong yet again.
saw a short message from someone. i wonder,
are you talking about me or am i jumping the gun?
i dont know anymore.
my cough worsen though my sore throat became better.
and you know what, i hate you.