For the ones that left their black mark on us all

[ne_heart_pas]

So I signed up to be interviewed by a PhD candidate working on her dissertation which is focused on using social networking sites such as facebook and myspace to "keep in touch" with friends who have passed away. At first i was really excited because i think the idea is really awesome but the more that i think about it the more depressed i am getting about it. I mean i know i was not Shaky's best friend but we shared some really great times and i have found myself thinking about him and really kind of needing him around alot more since school has started. I have had quite a few really lonely nights where i thought to myself "You know i bet i could call shaky and he'd cheer me up." Just remembering that one time he drove all the way out to Fortville -- before he had a cell phone -- in the middle of the night to hang out with me outside on my swingset for like four hours. No one has ever done anything like that for me before, no one. I can't help but wonder what kind of relationship we could have had if i had tried harder or maybe if he had just stuck around. I just have this lump in my throat that no amount of studying, sleeping, cycling or photographing will cure.

So in lu of all of this, i checked out his myspace tonight, duh. The only specific artist he lists under his musical interests in Cyndi Lauper; i've got to be her for Halloween now, no question.