May 16, 2009 09:07
I tend to not date people or fall for people. So the fact that both of these things may be happening at the same time with different people is definitely too much drama for me. I'm in grad school, my thoughts should be elsewhere.
I'm pretty sure that I've only really fallen for one person in my life. I won't mention even first names, otherwise two out of the three people that read this will probably immediately guess who it was, and I don't think either know about this. But it turns out that at my Friday night hangout, this guy that looks almost exactly like him: same glasses, same color hair, same body type, same complexion, ... , even the same name, started coming. So naturally a whole bunch of feelings came rushing into this, but they aren't real. It is obviously just because of this other person. It doesn't help that he is also really smart (has a Ph.D. in biochemistry).
Now the story goes weird. It turns out that just a few weeks ago I started dating someone. I like him, and he likes me. It is a pretty good situation. I thought if I slept a night, this morning I would feel differently. But I would really rather be dating the other person. But at the same time, I know I'm just projecting something onto this person that probably doesn't exist. It would also be really awful to break up with someone I just started dating for some reason that in all honesty is along the lines of "finding someone better." That is sort of the point of actually dating someone. When you have random lusting for other people, you don't act on it.
Thoughts?