Depressed......
I has been a long day...I went to bed last night at 2:30am and woke up at 7am. I went to school until 11:30am when I went to lunch and had my first meal. I found out I couldn't go to NY, Atlanta, or South Beach for spring break because there are no rooms left. So for spring break I will stay relativly close. I'm going to Tampa and Sarasota for 2 days then Daytona and Cocoa for 2 days. I am renting a car for this. I went to work. Work sucked and I fell into one of my depressive states. I started thinking how no one cares about me and everyone seems to just tolerate me. I had to listen to everyone talk about their wonderful lives and listen to customers complain about our service. I started thinking how I am not going anywhere but my wheels are spinning. I started thinking about how people don't care about each other anymore and how everyone cheats on everyone. I started thinking how I can't trust anyone and I can't talk to anyone. I wanted to quit, I wanted to just leave and never see those people again. I decided I wouldn't talk to anyone today and probably for a while. I really don't think I know the people I work with. I think I need counseling. I left work for lunch and didn't know where to go so I went to a store to try to shop my way back to normality but it didn't help. I went back to the horror and forced my way through the rest of the night. I rushed out of work at 11pm and tried to eat. I am now here finally and I need to study for a test on Friday at 8am. I need to get my life back in order or it will fall apart.....