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So the day has come to an end, yet again!
One thing about Kyle, is that he loves himself . . .ALOT! If you've been in my apartment, you know I have several pictures of. . . yes. . . MYSELF! But one interesting tidbit about me, is that I love myself because I have a hard time falling or even being attracted to other people. I have extremely high standards and it's interesting to know that there aren't alot of people that "fit in my category." Some may consider it selfish, some may consider it superficial,and others may think it's flat out snotty! Whatever! It's called being picky. It's called I've dated a lot of different types. And it's called, I KNOW WHAT I WANT & what works with me!! Somehow, about 3 years ago I realized that the person I fall in love with will be my best friend and my lover. Now, I know what you're thinking. . . You're thinking "that's so a made for TV movie," or "that's so what J.Lo would say about her beloved Marc Antony." Whatever! Well, that may be true to some points, but it's more so a feeling that I just know will come true one day.
Well, here's my tie up. . . . I've met him. I think, and so do so many other people, that we are just a wonderful pair. This is not something that I've planned. This is not something that is just made up. This is real! I've known this person for a while now, and my feelings for him haven't changed one bit. And again, for those of you that know me, you know if I do like someone it's here and there. It's not something that sticks for too long. What do you do when you are in this situation. If I ask him if he feels the same way, it could ruin a perfectly wonderful friendship. If I don't ask him it could result in a broken heart. However, If I do ask him and he does feel the same, it could change both of our lives for the better. I'm just totally torn on what to do. I once learned from a fraternity brother of mine, that sometimes not saying anything will get you further thank you think.
Love just seems so fickle and complex. I just don't understand how when you know that special someone is right there, it's so hard not to just reach out and hold him and tell him how you really feel.
Sorry for the two depressing journal entries in a row! :-\ sigh
One thing about Kyle, is that he loves himself . . .ALOT! If you've been in my apartment, you know I have several pictures of. . . yes. . . MYSELF! But one interesting tidbit about me, is that I love myself because I have a hard time falling or even being attracted to other people. I have extremely high standards and it's interesting to know that there aren't alot of people that "fit in my category." Some may consider it selfish, some may consider it superficial,and others may think it's flat out snotty! Whatever! It's called being picky. It's called I've dated a lot of different types. And it's called, I KNOW WHAT I WANT & what works with me!! Somehow, about 3 years ago I realized that the person I fall in love with will be my best friend and my lover. Now, I know what you're thinking. . . You're thinking "that's so a made for TV movie," or "that's so what J.Lo would say about her beloved Marc Antony." Whatever! Well, that may be true to some points, but it's more so a feeling that I just know will come true one day.
Well, here's my tie up. . . . I've met him. I think, and so do so many other people, that we are just a wonderful pair. This is not something that I've planned. This is not something that is just made up. This is real! I've known this person for a while now, and my feelings for him haven't changed one bit. And again, for those of you that know me, you know if I do like someone it's here and there. It's not something that sticks for too long. What do you do when you are in this situation. If I ask him if he feels the same way, it could ruin a perfectly wonderful friendship. If I don't ask him it could result in a broken heart. However, If I do ask him and he does feel the same, it could change both of our lives for the better. I'm just totally torn on what to do. I once learned from a fraternity brother of mine, that sometimes not saying anything will get you further thank you think.
Love just seems so fickle and complex. I just don't understand how when you know that special someone is right there, it's so hard not to just reach out and hold him and tell him how you really feel.
Sorry for the two depressing journal entries in a row! :-\ sigh