I Just Want....
The start of the semester to be over. I just want all my textbooks to arrive. I just want everything to be ok. I just want to not be a failure, a fuckup, a walking disaster. I just want to be able to sleep at night again. I just want to never hear Gina say "Oh, this is what the Bookstore used to look like..." again.
I just want all of this to be over and done. Once it is, then my life can get back to its regular course. Although, after this, I'm wondering if I'll want to put up with the same bullshit in March / April, when I've got as short of a window to try and get everything switched around. This week has really made me think, just how fast could I get out if I decided that I can't fucking do it anymore? Could I get out by April 1? May 1? June 1? I don't know, but if things don't start to get better soon, I just might find out.
I just want all of this to be over and done. Once it is, then my life can get back to its regular course. Although, after this, I'm wondering if I'll want to put up with the same bullshit in March / April, when I've got as short of a window to try and get everything switched around. This week has really made me think, just how fast could I get out if I decided that I can't fucking do it anymore? Could I get out by April 1? May 1? June 1? I don't know, but if things don't start to get better soon, I just might find out.