just so i know...

[nd2007]

this journal isnt meant for anyone else to see...tis just something for me to do when i'm really bored and need to feel like i'm doing something. it actually helps though to like...get the shit thats on my mind, off it. my life is just ok right now...my people are good and shit...but i dont got a girl. and i've never been the type to stress over having a female, but i dont know whats up with me lately i been wanting one real bad...but i dont even have the energy to even pursue one...i hope i aint gay! (lol..just playin) but seriously its crazy...i needa start tryin, cause i dont wanna go through highschool like a loser without someone ya know what i'm sayin? And that girl from Tallahassee...i lost her number and havent heard from her in a while...i'll probably see her next year. It shall be fun i hope ;) lol...but back here in WONDERFUL oviedo...the choices of girls would be...this girl raissa i think she seems mad cool, and then shara's sexy self, and im startin to like caroline for some odd reason haha...and CAITLEN too, i want her so bad and she's mad cool too...and shawnta...thats a dime piece right there! woooooowee...she so sexy..but i always want the girl i cant have..the girl thats got a man..thats how it is with the tallahassee girl...thats how it kinda is with this other girl..i thought i was COMPLETELY over any kinda non-friendly relationship with her but i guess i'm kinda not, its like unfinished business sorta..but i like this girl, i think we'd be good together NOW, not THEN..but she's all occupied with some dude from outta town...it kinda pisses me off because it seems like at times the dude is her bitch then other times he is like doggin her out, she dont deserve that kinda shit...especially at that age, she should be having fun with ME lol..whatever though, everything will work out how it needs to work out and how God sees fit right! EVERYTHING IS EVERYTHING and i'm coo with it all...but some of that stuff WOULD be nice!

its so weird that no one sees this thing haha

peace...to myself