Father's Day Weekend
I had an okay weekend... though I always miss my family so much. It makes it harder on holidays. Most people get to spend the day with their fathers, but not me. My dad lives about 12 hours away from me, so it makes it hard to see him. I'm just thankful to have a dad that cares about me. I can't say as much of my real mom - she seems not to care at all.
On Saturday, my husband and I went to see a band we recently started liking called Boyce Avenue at the Satyricon. They were pretty amazing. They have something that a lot of bands that are already famous don't have. They sound just as good live as they do on their cd.
I'm feeling pretty down today. I don't know what it is, but sometimes I get to thinking about my life and what I'm doing with it - and all I can think is that I'm not living up to my potential. Or, that I wish I was doing something I enjoyed. Instead, I live from one mundane day to another hoping that I'll find some kind of purpose in life. Right now, I feel pretty purposeless. I don't feel like I should be in insurance, but I feel like I don't have a choice. I can't do what I want because I don't have enough schooling. I can't do more schooling because I'm already up to my eyeballs in student loan debt and I have to work full time to support our family.
I just feel like I'll never get to a happy place and that I'll always have to settle for just getting by. At the same time though, I feel selfish because I know other people have it worse than me.
I don't know how to fix myself. I feel broken.
On Saturday, my husband and I went to see a band we recently started liking called Boyce Avenue at the Satyricon. They were pretty amazing. They have something that a lot of bands that are already famous don't have. They sound just as good live as they do on their cd.
I'm feeling pretty down today. I don't know what it is, but sometimes I get to thinking about my life and what I'm doing with it - and all I can think is that I'm not living up to my potential. Or, that I wish I was doing something I enjoyed. Instead, I live from one mundane day to another hoping that I'll find some kind of purpose in life. Right now, I feel pretty purposeless. I don't feel like I should be in insurance, but I feel like I don't have a choice. I can't do what I want because I don't have enough schooling. I can't do more schooling because I'm already up to my eyeballs in student loan debt and I have to work full time to support our family.
I just feel like I'll never get to a happy place and that I'll always have to settle for just getting by. At the same time though, I feel selfish because I know other people have it worse than me.
I don't know how to fix myself. I feel broken.