changing
This picture of me is from 5 years ago. I had long hair and now its that short again. I miss the length, the feminity of having long hair. curling it in rollers, the oohhhhs and ahhs of people wishing they could have my hair. I will have that hair again.
This place is a bit lonely. Maybe I do need a friend like dan suggests. Maybe I need to tell him I need to move to where my friends are. I miss ashley and melissa and talking on my phone and just girl friends. Dan works too much and when he comes home he is pissy when I tell him to wash his hands. I don't want to have his horse manure hands anywhere near me. I like his nice clean hands but not his smelly ones
I want to start my hobbies, I wish I knew where we were going after this, I think the uncertainty of it all is scary and frustrating. Doesn't give me much to look forward too. I know! I should see Adi, I mean really she is very close to where I am.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't on a ranch, I do enjoy it at times but it is a lot of work and i dunno if I want to spend my life here. I want dan to find his calling, figure out what he wants to do and where he wants to live. I don't really care. I guess its up to me to figure it all out. I guess I'll finally call my old friend pip, tomorrow actually. that is what I will do.
This place is a bit lonely. Maybe I do need a friend like dan suggests. Maybe I need to tell him I need to move to where my friends are. I miss ashley and melissa and talking on my phone and just girl friends. Dan works too much and when he comes home he is pissy when I tell him to wash his hands. I don't want to have his horse manure hands anywhere near me. I like his nice clean hands but not his smelly ones
I want to start my hobbies, I wish I knew where we were going after this, I think the uncertainty of it all is scary and frustrating. Doesn't give me much to look forward too. I know! I should see Adi, I mean really she is very close to where I am.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't on a ranch, I do enjoy it at times but it is a lot of work and i dunno if I want to spend my life here. I want dan to find his calling, figure out what he wants to do and where he wants to live. I don't really care. I guess its up to me to figure it all out. I guess I'll finally call my old friend pip, tomorrow actually. that is what I will do.