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"Grief is a most peculiar thing; we're so helpless in the face of it. It's like a window that will simply open of its own accord. The room grows cold, and we can do nothing but shiver. But it opens a little less each time, and a little less; and one day we wonder what has become of it."
This quote from Memoirs of a Geisha just hit me. Countless times I have been going along with my day and I'll just get overcome with sadness. Not so much lately. but sadness never goes away, there will always be some memory or some person that will envelope me. In a way its a bit comforting. I enjoy being sad sometimes, sitting in the shower crying or listening to Jeff Buckley. It feels good to cry and the next day I wake up with a weight lifted off of my shoulders and I feel a bit stronger. Looking back to this michael fiasco that I occasionally think of from time to time I can't help but think that it was all for a reason that lead me to this which will lead me to that. Not a day goes by that I regret breaking up with him and I'm getting closer to not regretting dating him. almost....heehhehe
Melissa told me that she had never really thought that highly of him but she supported me through dating him, which is completely the wrong thing to do. if anything I gain respect for my family and friends who told me straight up what they thought of him. Love can blind you and let you make up excuses for stuff and smooth everything over until you're fooled into believing you're right. I don't know at what point I won't be blinded by love. I hope that I will learn to act from my head and my heart and not just my heart. but I do know that i will never be a friend who will say things just to make you feel better, I will tell you exactly how i feel and exactly what is on my mind. if i don't think you should be with a dude that cheats on you i will tell you and probably never forgive him for his actions.
I met a cowboy this weekend, I will be living with him and others just like him for the summer. I'm anxious for the summer to start, mainly because I will be able to wear cowboy boots and a hat. This job ranching that my new friend Reno has would be perfect for Ben hannan, I thought of him numerous times and how much I think he would enjoy it. just a thought for ya ames. There is something amazing to be said about a man who can pull off tight wranglers, fix anything, cook a darn good dinner and make me laugh all in the same evening. enchanting; it set my mind spinning and my hormones raging. I made him cookies and my brother bought him tequila as a thank you for his generosity and just being him. he asked for my number and called just to say thank you, his southern drawl made me smile. butterflies.
This quote from Memoirs of a Geisha just hit me. Countless times I have been going along with my day and I'll just get overcome with sadness. Not so much lately. but sadness never goes away, there will always be some memory or some person that will envelope me. In a way its a bit comforting. I enjoy being sad sometimes, sitting in the shower crying or listening to Jeff Buckley. It feels good to cry and the next day I wake up with a weight lifted off of my shoulders and I feel a bit stronger. Looking back to this michael fiasco that I occasionally think of from time to time I can't help but think that it was all for a reason that lead me to this which will lead me to that. Not a day goes by that I regret breaking up with him and I'm getting closer to not regretting dating him. almost....heehhehe
Melissa told me that she had never really thought that highly of him but she supported me through dating him, which is completely the wrong thing to do. if anything I gain respect for my family and friends who told me straight up what they thought of him. Love can blind you and let you make up excuses for stuff and smooth everything over until you're fooled into believing you're right. I don't know at what point I won't be blinded by love. I hope that I will learn to act from my head and my heart and not just my heart. but I do know that i will never be a friend who will say things just to make you feel better, I will tell you exactly how i feel and exactly what is on my mind. if i don't think you should be with a dude that cheats on you i will tell you and probably never forgive him for his actions.
I met a cowboy this weekend, I will be living with him and others just like him for the summer. I'm anxious for the summer to start, mainly because I will be able to wear cowboy boots and a hat. This job ranching that my new friend Reno has would be perfect for Ben hannan, I thought of him numerous times and how much I think he would enjoy it. just a thought for ya ames. There is something amazing to be said about a man who can pull off tight wranglers, fix anything, cook a darn good dinner and make me laugh all in the same evening. enchanting; it set my mind spinning and my hormones raging. I made him cookies and my brother bought him tequila as a thank you for his generosity and just being him. he asked for my number and called just to say thank you, his southern drawl made me smile. butterflies.