I'm grumpy

[ncmercedes]

I woke up today around 11:30. Or at least, that's when I finally got up. It was a long night at work last night. Busiest day I've had in probably a year...I made a record amount in tips. But I left exhausted. Dragged myself home, watched a boring movie, then still couldn't sleep for some reason. So I stayed up late porusing ebay. Thus, I don't feel guilty for oversleeping. It's not like I had anything to do today anyway. Thought about getting up and doing school work or cleaning. But it'll wait. It's almost 1pm now and I gotta start getting ready for work. I almost forgot how much it stinks to have to work at 3pm on the weekends. It doesn't give you enough time to do anything with your day and you still miss out on any early night time activities. And speaking of which, I feel like I haven't done anything fun with my friends in a long time. Where are you guys? I know you are all busy and taking trips and such. And I will see you all at the Halloween party, but I wanna see you guys more often. I've realized that although I love spending time with Evan and enjoy his friends, I just don't fit in with them as much as I once thought. I love them but I feel like I just can't keep up. I guess I really have gotten old, cause I just get tired and bored so easily...which I hate. But at the same time, I really like doing new things and being active. I feel like I just keep doing the same things over and over and over. Some repitition can be good...I definitely like stability and doing things I enjoy frequently. But I wanna do more random things or at least have some variety in my life. Every time people do do things random and fun, like late night trips to Waffle House, I miss out. I know that some of it is just chance and scheduling, but I just feel left out. Sadly, I realize that I am left out precisely because I chose to be...that whole being old and boring thing.

Ok, time to get ready for work.

Thank you for reading my little personal rant. I guess I'm just feeling really blah today. So please take all this with a grain of salt.