Entry 3
Things have been going pretty good lately we're starting to get into a real rhythm with Jaime I think but Daniel's having a few issues. He loves Jaime but I still think he's scared we're going to be getting rid of him now that our real baby is here.
I have my own issues to get under control of course. Having another daughter is both amazing and terrifying. I worry about whats going to happen as she grows up, wonder if I'm going to compare her to Kelly mentally even if I don't say it out loud. So far so good but at this point with Kelly Joanne was around full time and whether they meant to or not she and Shannon had me pretty well boxed out. I don't think I held my own daughter without supervision until she was six months old.
Eventually, with a hell of a move, I got to really be a father but it wasn't easy and it took a steep learning curve to pick up what I'd missed. I was worried it was going to happen again, I mean Liz did the whole damn nursery for here and Jen was thrilled so I felt like a dick for saying anything. In a way I think I'm keeping my head in the sand. What you don't see can't hurt you.
I have my own issues to get under control of course. Having another daughter is both amazing and terrifying. I worry about whats going to happen as she grows up, wonder if I'm going to compare her to Kelly mentally even if I don't say it out loud. So far so good but at this point with Kelly Joanne was around full time and whether they meant to or not she and Shannon had me pretty well boxed out. I don't think I held my own daughter without supervision until she was six months old.
Eventually, with a hell of a move, I got to really be a father but it wasn't easy and it took a steep learning curve to pick up what I'd missed. I was worried it was going to happen again, I mean Liz did the whole damn nursery for here and Jen was thrilled so I felt like a dick for saying anything. In a way I think I'm keeping my head in the sand. What you don't see can't hurt you.