oh how i missed my journal...
so i haven't really written in a while. i blame myspace. damn myspace taking up all my time. it's late so i'll make it short...
i'm dating someone. not just casually going out and screwing around like a jackass but seriously dating someone. his name is louis. only, he seems to be more into me than i into him. i really don't know if it will progress however. he's already calling me 'baby' and saying he wants me and only me. blah,blah,blah. i think he's taking advantage of me being such a sweetheart because i'm starting to feel it in my pocketbook. is there anything wrong with being a sugar mama?...um,kind of. i'm taking him job hunting tomorrow so maybe he can start paying for shit. i do like him but i'm kind of scared of how fast he's wanting to move. it doesn't help that i'm still thinking about art 75% of the time. although,that is better than 95% of the time. fucking art. jesus why do i like him so much? i hate this.
i've been limited to my going out. yes, i am 21, yes i do pay my parents money monthly, yes i do have a job, yes i do have a car, yes i do stay out of trouble, yes i do help keep up the house, but i still am fucking restricted to going out only 2 motherfucking days a week. i NEED to get out! well, first i need to be fulltime at work. then i can afford to leave. i have been getting on average 30 hours a week lately however, so things are looking up.
i found an amazing way to spend my thursday nights! pj's, yes the lesbian bar attached to the sanctuary. on thursday nights it's a straight club though. yeah there are gays but straight people number more. AMAZING drink specials...75 cent wells and 1.75 domestics. right now it's $1 after ten, free before and 21 and up. next week they are changing it though to 18 and up $10, guys $4, and ladies 21 and up are free! hell yeah. they play the funnest mix of music ever! just last week i danced to nine inch nails, interpol, blondie, bjork, snoop dog, and warren g's 'regulator'!!! PLEASE,PLEASE,PLEASE, come out with carina and i this thurday. it will be ridiculously fun.
i have yet to see star wars, batman returns, or land of the dead. this is mainly due to the fact i have a hard time getting out. i do however plan on seeing batman this saturday to be followed by the sanctuary/communion. yes i still hit that place up every saturday and dance all night long. except this past saturday. i went to the funnest party i've ever been to at alyssa and adria's place. goddamn do they know how to throw a shindig. i cannot wait until the next one.
almost forgot, i got a tattoo! it's perfection and in such a perfect spot! 'nin' on my inside left wrist. looks like a stamp. it's a beauty alright. i've already got plans for a second one too. tattoos feel nice, in a weird way. ok, well it seems i've brought this up to date so time for sleep...