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So I guess I'll run down everything thats been happening!! So Adam and I were NOT together officially last week but we were like dating and talking I guess you could say and the week just seemed to be going so well... like it always does. Then I asked Adam a question he didnt like and he got pissed off at me and pretty much spend Friday fighting. Then I decided to be sweet and surprize him with something at midnight on Friday (or Sat.. I guess) because Sat was his b-day, so when I did that he sent me a TEXT saying thank you... not even a freaking phone call! Which okay I understand because he was asleep but even on Saturday... NO PHONE CALL! So I was like what are you doing all day for you b-day, and he replied with going to get my hair cut and watching his step dad perform, that was ALL I heard from him on Saturday, so I got to thinking about a lot of stuff then Sunday I did the unimaginable..
I called him and I basically told him that I dont trust him and that I cant be with someone I cant trust. I told him that he is about as shady as they come sometimes and that I know that he cant stand to be alone and I wont be a "filler" girl. I'm sorry but when you "care" for someone and dont even want to see them on your b-day thats bullshit. So he got pissed off at me but pretty much agreed that I was right about him being scared to be alone and thats when I hit the fan. I've told him so many times if you ever cared about me, let me go, let me be happy with someone else, just because you dont want to be with doesnt mean that you shouldnt want me to be with someone else. Ive never stopped him or asked him not to be with someone else so why cant he just do the same for me. The next time I so much as get a message or a text or anything from him, all I'm going to do is send a simple reply of our conversationg. Me: " I think you're scared to love someone but I think you're terrified to be alone" Him: "Youre exactly right". End of story. I'm done.
So anyways!! I decided not to take the job at the property in Canton because the job that Honda offerred me just has so much more benifits!! I mean I dont have to work ANY weekends, I get full insurance after 90 days (medical and dental) PLUS a 401k after a year and vacation time and things like that. The only sucky thing about it is that I'm working 8-5 and driving all the way down almost to 285 so traffic is going to be a bitch and its going to take me almost an hour to an hour and a half to get home. But whatever! My boss wasn't too happy when I told him but oh well, he's an ass anyways. Of course the past two days he has been REALLY nice to me. which of course makes me feel guilty but its time for me to do something for ME. My mom and my sister are taking me out for a Condradulation lunch to Long Horn on Saturday!! And my baby is going to be there!! I love my niece!!! Its so funny because ya know how you love your brothers and sisters but the love I have for Miss Corissa is so deep!! I dont understand it! She's like one of the most important people to me I guess because my sister and I are so close and thats her baby. Idk its weird. I can only imagine how much love will be there when I have my own babies!!! But yea. So thats pretty much what's been going on this week!! Lol, I dont know if anyone reads this but I hope you have a good week if you do!
I called him and I basically told him that I dont trust him and that I cant be with someone I cant trust. I told him that he is about as shady as they come sometimes and that I know that he cant stand to be alone and I wont be a "filler" girl. I'm sorry but when you "care" for someone and dont even want to see them on your b-day thats bullshit. So he got pissed off at me but pretty much agreed that I was right about him being scared to be alone and thats when I hit the fan. I've told him so many times if you ever cared about me, let me go, let me be happy with someone else, just because you dont want to be with doesnt mean that you shouldnt want me to be with someone else. Ive never stopped him or asked him not to be with someone else so why cant he just do the same for me. The next time I so much as get a message or a text or anything from him, all I'm going to do is send a simple reply of our conversationg. Me: " I think you're scared to love someone but I think you're terrified to be alone" Him: "Youre exactly right". End of story. I'm done.
So anyways!! I decided not to take the job at the property in Canton because the job that Honda offerred me just has so much more benifits!! I mean I dont have to work ANY weekends, I get full insurance after 90 days (medical and dental) PLUS a 401k after a year and vacation time and things like that. The only sucky thing about it is that I'm working 8-5 and driving all the way down almost to 285 so traffic is going to be a bitch and its going to take me almost an hour to an hour and a half to get home. But whatever! My boss wasn't too happy when I told him but oh well, he's an ass anyways. Of course the past two days he has been REALLY nice to me. which of course makes me feel guilty but its time for me to do something for ME. My mom and my sister are taking me out for a Condradulation lunch to Long Horn on Saturday!! And my baby is going to be there!! I love my niece!!! Its so funny because ya know how you love your brothers and sisters but the love I have for Miss Corissa is so deep!! I dont understand it! She's like one of the most important people to me I guess because my sister and I are so close and thats her baby. Idk its weird. I can only imagine how much love will be there when I have my own babies!!! But yea. So thats pretty much what's been going on this week!! Lol, I dont know if anyone reads this but I hope you have a good week if you do!