Been a long time coming
Ok so I know it has been forever since I updated last. I have just been really busy. So last time I told ya'll anything I was crushing on my neighbor. Well we have now been officially dating for like three months. He is super great! He treats me really good and is the sweetest person I have ever meet. Wow I actually am at a loss for words about him. Everything is just great in my life right now. Well as far as Tim and I go. He (Tim) has decided that he can no longer be freinds with me because he can't stand the thought of what was his being given to someone else. That actually hurts me a lot. I was his friend through two different girls while he was with them but now that I have actually found someone who makes me happy he just can't handle it. I just don't understand it. I really really wish that he and I could still be friends and talk like we used to but I guess that just is not possible. Maybe later in life we will be able to be. I don't know we will just have to see what happens. Anyway back to this new person.
His name is Mike. He just is great. I know I know I have said that already. I just can't help it he really is. Well at least for now I can't find anything wrong with him. He is actually at the beach right now and has been for the past eight days. But it is really weird to me how it is not making me freak out or panic in anyway. Considering my past with guys I should be totally freaking out on him right now. But I am not. I actually trust this guy and I know he is not going to do anything. I don't really know why I feel so calm about the whole thing. I just do. It kind of scares me at some times, to be able to trust someone this much.
This is all just really crazy to me and very new. I mean I was with the same guy for the past eight years and now to be with someone new is a little scary. But I really do think it is a very good thing for me. Mike is just awesome. He doesn't tell me what to do or how to do anything. He doesn't tell me that something I am doing is wrong just because he doens't agree with it. We are just 100% open with each other and honest and it is really great. But you know what he treats me so well that at the beginning of all of this I tried to find things wrong with him to make me not like him. I really believe that I was just really scared of someone being so dang nice to me and treating me so well that I was looking for excuses to leave him alone.
Who knows what will happen with us in the future. Only God knows the plans that he has for me and what will happen. I know for sure that I am not going to sit around and dwell on it or even try to figure out where I think things are going. I am just going to enjoy each and every moment that I have and not worry about what is to come. Things will happen in their own time and when they are supposed to happen.
On another plus side I am getting ready to fly out to California on July 18th and will be there for 9 days. It is going to ROCK seeing a new place and having new experiences. I am super excited about the trip.
Well I guess that is all the updating I have for now. I will post more later.
~Caroline
His name is Mike. He just is great. I know I know I have said that already. I just can't help it he really is. Well at least for now I can't find anything wrong with him. He is actually at the beach right now and has been for the past eight days. But it is really weird to me how it is not making me freak out or panic in anyway. Considering my past with guys I should be totally freaking out on him right now. But I am not. I actually trust this guy and I know he is not going to do anything. I don't really know why I feel so calm about the whole thing. I just do. It kind of scares me at some times, to be able to trust someone this much.
This is all just really crazy to me and very new. I mean I was with the same guy for the past eight years and now to be with someone new is a little scary. But I really do think it is a very good thing for me. Mike is just awesome. He doesn't tell me what to do or how to do anything. He doesn't tell me that something I am doing is wrong just because he doens't agree with it. We are just 100% open with each other and honest and it is really great. But you know what he treats me so well that at the beginning of all of this I tried to find things wrong with him to make me not like him. I really believe that I was just really scared of someone being so dang nice to me and treating me so well that I was looking for excuses to leave him alone.
Who knows what will happen with us in the future. Only God knows the plans that he has for me and what will happen. I know for sure that I am not going to sit around and dwell on it or even try to figure out where I think things are going. I am just going to enjoy each and every moment that I have and not worry about what is to come. Things will happen in their own time and when they are supposed to happen.
On another plus side I am getting ready to fly out to California on July 18th and will be there for 9 days. It is going to ROCK seeing a new place and having new experiences. I am super excited about the trip.
Well I guess that is all the updating I have for now. I will post more later.
~Caroline