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"Friend." That word has never made me burst into tears before. Before. Today, however, things changed a bit.
Bonnie. Yes, her. The old wound, the ex-girlfriend, the one I'll never hear from again, that Bonnie. I accidentally woke her up this afternoon when I called her. Thankfully, since we talked for a little over an hour, she had plenty of time to wake up and clear her head. We caught up, we cleared the air, we made old jokes and new ones. I broached the subject of the future between us and she said "friend," and I cried, quietly. I effused endless relief and satisfaction, we made plans for future contact, and she got off the phone b/c her boyfriend showed up. I'm neither surprised or disappointed at the "boyfriend" issue; she's with who I thought she would be with and she seems happy, so I'm cool with that. Anyways, I clicked the disconnect on the cellphone and collapsed, weeping like one who's seen the pure, unfiltered brilliance and glory of the universe. Considering the timing (last day before leaving), the circumstances (stumble across her number via a friend whom she recently called), and the outcome (the first thing I've been hoping for, the last thing I've been expecting), I believe that Serendipity is alive and well in my life. Hope said some things about Serendipity; I reflect upon these and I know that everything will work out. I am happy.
Bonnie. Yes, her. The old wound, the ex-girlfriend, the one I'll never hear from again, that Bonnie. I accidentally woke her up this afternoon when I called her. Thankfully, since we talked for a little over an hour, she had plenty of time to wake up and clear her head. We caught up, we cleared the air, we made old jokes and new ones. I broached the subject of the future between us and she said "friend," and I cried, quietly. I effused endless relief and satisfaction, we made plans for future contact, and she got off the phone b/c her boyfriend showed up. I'm neither surprised or disappointed at the "boyfriend" issue; she's with who I thought she would be with and she seems happy, so I'm cool with that. Anyways, I clicked the disconnect on the cellphone and collapsed, weeping like one who's seen the pure, unfiltered brilliance and glory of the universe. Considering the timing (last day before leaving), the circumstances (stumble across her number via a friend whom she recently called), and the outcome (the first thing I've been hoping for, the last thing I've been expecting), I believe that Serendipity is alive and well in my life. Hope said some things about Serendipity; I reflect upon these and I know that everything will work out. I am happy.