Oooooh, today's my birthday!!!!

[nbfrules]

Big 17! Actually, I don't think 17 is going to be any different than last year. I liked last year, though, and I want to thank three people who, in particular, made last year awesome for me:
Scott Feldman
WIll Inohara
Ashley Harris
Hopefully, this year will be awesome, too.

Comments

here goes..

[__hey_lush]

okay. this may be a long comment but i need to get this all out. I'm really not mad, just a little confused. i don't understand how you think there was no problem in spreading a rumor about me like that. true or not, it is a rumor. a rumor that could kill my reputation as well as his. a rumor that could possibly get him thrown in jail. i do admit that i overreacted when i found out that you told ben but put yourself in my shoes. that was a really messed thing to do. and you know it as well as i do. i want us to still be friends but i dont know if i can tell you anything anymore. not after you go and tell the one person you don't tell secrets too. the one person that i trust least. and you had no problems with telling him what happens in my life which you a) aren't even that big of a part of anymore and b) don't even know of it really happend or not. how fucked up do you have to be? i don't really care if you go and take me off your friend list or whatever because to tell you the truth, ive been tempted to do the same. at one point i felt so strongly for you i didnt know what i would do without you. and now, i just dont know if i can even look at you as a decent person. ya know that saying "all it takes is once"? thats the case in this situation. i just don't get how someone who apparently cares about me can do something like that. you may think im overreacting again but this is months of pent up frustration that im finally getting out of my system and i can't stop the ball after its already started rolling. okay, i think im done. if you have anything to say to me now would be the time.

p.s thank you for making last year one of the happiest of my life. and this year one of the most stressful and its only 1 week into it.

-ashley

Re: here goes..

[nbfrules]

Well, I don't really know what to say. I am sorry; I'll admit, I didn't realize that this would be that big of a deal. I completely understand, though, why it is, and, in retrospect, realize that what I did was way out of line.
I also realize that I am not a big part of your life anymore. That's something I am really sad about, but I don't know what to do. I can't believe, though, that you could actually think that would do something with the explicit intention of fucking you over. It's true, we are no where near as close as we used to be, but I haven't really changed since we broke up. You were the first person that I ever really loved, and because of that, I will always have a special place for you in my heart. I would never do anything like that intentionally; and I'm sorry, and very sad, that you are under the impression that I would, or even could.
So I don't know what happens from here; I would understand if you never wanted to talk to me again, but at the same time, I would be sad, since I value you a great deal. It's really up to you. I'm eager to try to be the best friend that I can be to you, but I know that I might have fucked up one to many times. I just hope that, whatever your decision is, that you will let me know. I have trouble dealing with suspense, as you well know. In any event, I wish you the best, and have a very happy New Year.