STRESS
So like Beth and I said only like four people read this stuff so we can say what we want.
First off if anyone asks, I am MAX stressed and I kinda wanna die. Every year at this exact time i feel like diving off a plane with no para shoot just waiting to feel my body go numb and pass out or something. Im in chagre of the Vag monos, in 2 shows, and dealing with MONSTERS of people all week in FR every single night for YMTC. Dealing with nonsensical bull shit from people who dont appreciate the art i love. I also have to prepare for NETC's and my mind is not ready for that. And then shitackies load of school work ads on to my disasterous life.
O then there is my heart.
I TRIED to not like anyone bc basically men make me insane, and being alone always sounds better then worrying about a man.
I dunno then I met Nick.
At first I was like sex yum.
Then we went to B-fast and he paid and I got a lil crush but i was like nope not letting it happen.
I got asked on a date by Dan Chiassion and he is great, but....lets be real I like Nick.
I only decided this when we discussed how we were the same person and how he was gonna be my Valentines date for Vag monologues...and i got smitts.
BUT
issue being
nothing is serious
and i dont want SERIOUS
but i dont want Alley and Kevin 2006
which was me pouring my heart out and me having to be a sex object and small date taker for like six months until something happened but all the while i was emotionally a wreck and ready to explode inside for liking someone so much and giving it all i have...and.
i wish men loved women like women love men.
maybe ill get lucky, if not i guess i can call dan chaisson up...right?
i dont like liking men. it makes me naseous.
First off if anyone asks, I am MAX stressed and I kinda wanna die. Every year at this exact time i feel like diving off a plane with no para shoot just waiting to feel my body go numb and pass out or something. Im in chagre of the Vag monos, in 2 shows, and dealing with MONSTERS of people all week in FR every single night for YMTC. Dealing with nonsensical bull shit from people who dont appreciate the art i love. I also have to prepare for NETC's and my mind is not ready for that. And then shitackies load of school work ads on to my disasterous life.
O then there is my heart.
I TRIED to not like anyone bc basically men make me insane, and being alone always sounds better then worrying about a man.
I dunno then I met Nick.
At first I was like sex yum.
Then we went to B-fast and he paid and I got a lil crush but i was like nope not letting it happen.
I got asked on a date by Dan Chiassion and he is great, but....lets be real I like Nick.
I only decided this when we discussed how we were the same person and how he was gonna be my Valentines date for Vag monologues...and i got smitts.
BUT
issue being
nothing is serious
and i dont want SERIOUS
but i dont want Alley and Kevin 2006
which was me pouring my heart out and me having to be a sex object and small date taker for like six months until something happened but all the while i was emotionally a wreck and ready to explode inside for liking someone so much and giving it all i have...and.
i wish men loved women like women love men.
maybe ill get lucky, if not i guess i can call dan chaisson up...right?
i dont like liking men. it makes me naseous.