And that's the end!
Back from Iowa, where I had a lovely time chilling with Becka. We didn't get to ride bikes, but we did play Wii and Fluxx and Frisbee (both frisbee golf and just running around), and we had a LotR marathon and watched Doctor Who and Monty Python... it was a good time. It's always good to hang with Becka.
Of course, while I was in Iowa, my rejection letter from Iowa arrived back home in MN. That's pretty much the end of the grad school campaign. Absolutly everyone rejected me. Everyone. The economy is apparently in really shit straits right now, so it was a poor time to apply since no one has any funding.
So, now it's time to do something else. I'll be moving down to Texas in April, where I'll start the process of getting certified as a high school teacher. Hopefully I can get a job teaching down there, and build up some cash reserves. Then, if I don't like it down in Texas, I'll go abroad again, until such a time that the economy is more favourable for grad school, or I decide what I want to do. I may decide to nix teaching after this; I don't know. Truthfully, I have no idea what I'm doing or what I want to do. I'm just flailing around and hoping I hit on something that works.
I'm also kind of terrified of what I'm doing. I'm afraid of being an adult. I don't know what I'm doing or what I want to do or anything. I don't feel ready to be responsible and on my own or anything, especially since I have no long-term plans. Where will I be in 10 years? I have no idea. I don't even know where I want to be. I make short term plans and then make decisions based on things I like, or the reality that gets handed to me.
Arrgh. I'm having a crisis of confidence, right on schedule. It's been like this pretty much every March for... about five years, now. I hate the way it makes me feel.
But since I'm also feeling high on exhaustion right now, maybe things will look better in the morning.
Of course, all my grad schools will still have rejected me.
Rejection List
1.) University of Minnesota: Rejected
2.) University of Illinois: Rejected
3.) University of Iowa: Rejected
4.) University of Texas: Rejected
5.) Cornell: Rejected
6.) Oxford (still waiting for that rejection)
7.) Notre Dame: Rejected
Of course, while I was in Iowa, my rejection letter from Iowa arrived back home in MN. That's pretty much the end of the grad school campaign. Absolutly everyone rejected me. Everyone. The economy is apparently in really shit straits right now, so it was a poor time to apply since no one has any funding.
So, now it's time to do something else. I'll be moving down to Texas in April, where I'll start the process of getting certified as a high school teacher. Hopefully I can get a job teaching down there, and build up some cash reserves. Then, if I don't like it down in Texas, I'll go abroad again, until such a time that the economy is more favourable for grad school, or I decide what I want to do. I may decide to nix teaching after this; I don't know. Truthfully, I have no idea what I'm doing or what I want to do. I'm just flailing around and hoping I hit on something that works.
I'm also kind of terrified of what I'm doing. I'm afraid of being an adult. I don't know what I'm doing or what I want to do or anything. I don't feel ready to be responsible and on my own or anything, especially since I have no long-term plans. Where will I be in 10 years? I have no idea. I don't even know where I want to be. I make short term plans and then make decisions based on things I like, or the reality that gets handed to me.
Arrgh. I'm having a crisis of confidence, right on schedule. It's been like this pretty much every March for... about five years, now. I hate the way it makes me feel.
But since I'm also feeling high on exhaustion right now, maybe things will look better in the morning.
Of course, all my grad schools will still have rejected me.
Rejection List
1.) University of Minnesota: Rejected
2.) University of Illinois: Rejected
3.) University of Iowa: Rejected
4.) University of Texas: Rejected
5.) Cornell: Rejected
6.) Oxford (still waiting for that rejection)
7.) Notre Dame: Rejected