uggh
Well, lets see...how do i describe last night? hurt, anger, saddness, pain, rage, ruins, depression, angst...i dont even know where to fucking begin. I think last night was the beginning of the end for my family. Fights, yelling, screaming, swearing, anger, saddness, everything, and i witnessed it all first hand, standing there with my head against the wall, and crying so hard i couldnt breathe. My brother vs. mom and dad. mom vs ed and dad dad vs mom and ed. it was one big match of freaking confusing, and i dont know what to do. Ed is confined to his room cuz he'd rather not come out. Mom is alienated to her room cuz she doesnt wanna come out. dad is at work then not talking to anyone. im sitting here stuck in the middle as usual and it sucks worse than anything. I'm sad, mad, confused....this isnt a family, just a jumble of people living together that all live differently and never get along...it sucks so bad, and it hurts and i dont know what to do...ugggh