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I am depriving myself of the ability to feel anything because my emotions could either make me or break me.
The problem with being open about one's emotions is the possibility that someone might take advantage of it.
So I decided to be numb. Or at least I wish I were just one. That way, no one could hurt me. But I am also taking away the chance to be happy.
Maybe I'm just scared. But understand me, I just don't want to fall to pieces. I worked so hard to build myself up. I won't let anyone break down these walls. (*conscience* Yeah right, as if anyone would care to do so?) I might not recover the next time.
God. I am so afraid. Please help me.
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What am I doing to myself? I am not being human. It also hurts, but in a cold kind of way.
But I don't know which is better (or worse). Stupid noh? hehe.
Which is worse: to be an emotional human who is SO vulnerable or to be an unbreakable numb person?
I guess I know the answer. I'm just so afraid.
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Reading what I just wrote above surprised me. This is not me anymore. This wasn't the lady whose life is an open book. She decided to hide. Oh Lord, please save her.
The problem with being open about one's emotions is the possibility that someone might take advantage of it.
So I decided to be numb. Or at least I wish I were just one. That way, no one could hurt me. But I am also taking away the chance to be happy.
Maybe I'm just scared. But understand me, I just don't want to fall to pieces. I worked so hard to build myself up. I won't let anyone break down these walls. (*conscience* Yeah right, as if anyone would care to do so?) I might not recover the next time.
God. I am so afraid. Please help me.
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What am I doing to myself? I am not being human. It also hurts, but in a cold kind of way.
But I don't know which is better (or worse). Stupid noh? hehe.
Which is worse: to be an emotional human who is SO vulnerable or to be an unbreakable numb person?
I guess I know the answer. I'm just so afraid.
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Reading what I just wrote above surprised me. This is not me anymore. This wasn't the lady whose life is an open book. She decided to hide. Oh Lord, please save her.