what's done is done
so that's it. i'm back in richmond and i never have to work another night in martinsville ever again.
it was funny to me how everyone was wishing me luck and in the back of my mind i was thinking "you to" because seriously, that place sucks. i thought it sounded bad ass to that my away message on the last night of work said "finishing what i started." like i was going to cap a fool or something.
enough with that though, i learned alot from being down there. too much to type here even so i won't.
i will say that i'm a new person and a focused person. everything seems to be in order now. nothing really drags me down but i'm not just floating in empty space either. i have goals and the will to get them done. forgive me if i speak with a little twang though, it'll pass in time.
i feel like such a new person that i'm changing all of my alais' to "joebot" (except for xbox live because i'm stuck with that for a year). i've had that name on the back burner for a while but i wanted to wait until now to use it. kaptn was back in high school and i've kind of grown out of it. trevelyan and naylevert both carry an emptiness with them. i no longer see myself in that light so i won't put myself in it. you all will be notified when the change is official.
finally, anyone that hurt or abandoned me in the past is forgiven. most of you aren't reading this but i'm going to type it out anyway. i was holding alot of anger and spite towards you all inside but i've let that go. consider it an early christmas present. this dosen't mean i haven't forgotten what you've done, that will never happen. should i come across you in life again i will hold nothing against you. you will be judged as if i were meeting you for the first time. should anyone in their right mind ever think about doing anything like that to me again, you better watch the fuck out.
it was funny to me how everyone was wishing me luck and in the back of my mind i was thinking "you to" because seriously, that place sucks. i thought it sounded bad ass to that my away message on the last night of work said "finishing what i started." like i was going to cap a fool or something.
enough with that though, i learned alot from being down there. too much to type here even so i won't.
i will say that i'm a new person and a focused person. everything seems to be in order now. nothing really drags me down but i'm not just floating in empty space either. i have goals and the will to get them done. forgive me if i speak with a little twang though, it'll pass in time.
i feel like such a new person that i'm changing all of my alais' to "joebot" (except for xbox live because i'm stuck with that for a year). i've had that name on the back burner for a while but i wanted to wait until now to use it. kaptn was back in high school and i've kind of grown out of it. trevelyan and naylevert both carry an emptiness with them. i no longer see myself in that light so i won't put myself in it. you all will be notified when the change is official.
finally, anyone that hurt or abandoned me in the past is forgiven. most of you aren't reading this but i'm going to type it out anyway. i was holding alot of anger and spite towards you all inside but i've let that go. consider it an early christmas present. this dosen't mean i haven't forgotten what you've done, that will never happen. should i come across you in life again i will hold nothing against you. you will be judged as if i were meeting you for the first time. should anyone in their right mind ever think about doing anything like that to me again, you better watch the fuck out.