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I still think a lot about my ex. Not really in a sense of "why did this have to happen, why does he have to be like this, why cant he just change" sort of thing.. but just like.... I dont know more factual thinking I guess, and some times reminisent. (sp?)
I mean I still hear a lot about him because Im friends with his sister, and Im really good friends with his brother's girlfriend. so I hear about the latest dumb things Jose's done, or the latest lies he's told, at which my opinions of have changed greatly... A few weeks ago I would have said god why is he so dumb? if he doesnt change hes gonna ruin his life or end up in jail again. Now its like, "whatever, I hope he does end up in jail maybe he'll learn a lesson, and if he doesnt well good riddance I dont have to worry about him cuz Ill know where he is.. Lol
I dont know though.. sometimes Ill be driving and Ill randomly think of something that was funny he said or did and Ill smile, or Ill think about a time that we had that was good and Ill smile, that sort of thing. I dont want to think about these things though. Not because it makes me week and makes me miss him, Im past that point.. But just because.. I dont know I find out more and more hes not a good person and I dont want to have good thoughts about a bad person..
Oh well... Again, I wandered off from this post and got distracted, so again Ill end it here lol... I went to let my dog go potty and then I decided to put everything back from my carpets being cleaned, then I remembered Martha is comin over tomorrow so I did some cleaning up.. heh.. oh well ttyl
I mean I still hear a lot about him because Im friends with his sister, and Im really good friends with his brother's girlfriend. so I hear about the latest dumb things Jose's done, or the latest lies he's told, at which my opinions of have changed greatly... A few weeks ago I would have said god why is he so dumb? if he doesnt change hes gonna ruin his life or end up in jail again. Now its like, "whatever, I hope he does end up in jail maybe he'll learn a lesson, and if he doesnt well good riddance I dont have to worry about him cuz Ill know where he is.. Lol
I dont know though.. sometimes Ill be driving and Ill randomly think of something that was funny he said or did and Ill smile, or Ill think about a time that we had that was good and Ill smile, that sort of thing. I dont want to think about these things though. Not because it makes me week and makes me miss him, Im past that point.. But just because.. I dont know I find out more and more hes not a good person and I dont want to have good thoughts about a bad person..
Oh well... Again, I wandered off from this post and got distracted, so again Ill end it here lol... I went to let my dog go potty and then I decided to put everything back from my carpets being cleaned, then I remembered Martha is comin over tomorrow so I did some cleaning up.. heh.. oh well ttyl