Falling confusedly for you
[Daiki's POV]
The group I really enjoyed working with Hey! Say! JUMP. But Before JUMP was even formed, I already had so much fun with Hey! Say! 7, basically because I liked all the members. Not to be biased or anything, but the one I loved was Yamada Ryosuke, Yama-chan, as we call him.
Whenever I see his adorable face, I can almost die, and I'll die happy. Every time he smiles, my heart melts. And when he asks me to do things I'm too lazy to do, he pulls out that pout that kills me. I know it's weird for me to like him but.. I can't help it. He's irresistible.
I've already confessed my love for him and almost a year has passed since then. He rejected my confession a few days later, but I never stopped loving him. I definitely don't want to get hurt, but I'm sure I don't want to stop loving him.
I keep doing everything he says, and most of the time I certain he's taking me for granted. The other JUMP members have seen me suffer because of my love for Yama-chan and pity me for it. They even tried to talk Yama-chan into liking me behind my back but it didn't work. But even so, I still didn't give up.
That's just how love is, right? You can't force someone to love you back, but still, you continue to love them without expecting anything in return.. they're the ones who your heart chose, and no one can change that.
[Yamada's POV]
It feels weird when you've been good friends with someone and suddenly he tells you he loves you.
That's why ever since, I did my best to preserve my friendship with one of the JUMP members, Arioka Daiki. I can't find it in my heart to love him back. Believe me, I tried. And because of my inability to repay the love he shows, I appear as the bad guy between the two of us.
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I'm leaving today. Me and the rest of the group are having a small get-together in Kei's house and, sleeping over as well.
But I'm a tad nervous about this 'cause this might be another plot to make me like Dai-chan again. I don't wanna to be disliked by my fellow members because of this issue, but I don't blame Daiki for it.
I was deep in thought when my phone, located on the top of my drawer, started to ring, startling me a bit.
"Moshi moshi? Inoo-kun?" I answered.
"Yama-chan, I just called to remind to about our little party later," he explained.
I chuckled, "How could I forget?"
"Well, I'm just calling to make sure. I'm calling every member"
"Ahh... I see. Well, I won't forget~" I assured.
"You better not. Anyway, I have to go. I'm still preparing our sleeping place."
"Hai, bye bye~" hanging up the phone right after.
Having two hours left to prepare myself, I took a shower, got into my clothes and preparing extra clothes that I placed in my backpack. I put my phone in my pocket and headed out my bedroom door. My mom was in the other room so I raised my voice for her to hear, saying that I'll be going to Inoo's house and took my leave.
The party popped in my head and again became nervous because of my theory that this is all a scheme to get me to like Dai-chan.
But I'm not gonna let that stop me from having fun. I deserve to have fun, I worked really hard, and so did the others.
Before I knew it, I was one block away from Kei's house. I saw Hikaru and Yabu on the other side of the street and waved at them. They noticed me and I was expecting a "yo~!" or for them to wave back in return, but they always seem to surprise me. They ran towards me while loudly yelling "Yama-chaaaan~!!" like we haven't seen each other in years.
Before we could even stand in front of Kei's house, he already opened the door. He probably heard the two yelling.
"Yo~!" Kei greeted, "Good thing you're here now. Chii and Ryu are already here, they came together, so did Yuto and Keito."
A few minutes after our arrival cam Takaki with Dai-chan.
"Ah! The two are finally here~!" Yuto exclaimed.
"Dai-chan, why are you with Takaki? Have you already replaced Yama-chan~?" Ryutaro teased at the sight of the two.
"Hai!" Yuya intervened before Daiki could defend himself, "I have replaced Yama-chan is Daiki's heart~" he joked followed by a giggle.
"Takaki! What has gotten into you?!" Daiki burst into laughter.
"I see Yama-chan is irreplaceable in Dai-chan's heart, I see~" Hikaru joined in.
"-sigh- I guess it's useless to fight back since no one listens," Daiki surrendered.
"Chill, Dai-chan. We were only teasing~" Yabu-kun said.
Everybody gathered around the dining table waiting for the food. Takaki joined us while everyone noticed that Daiki stayed in the living room, seeming to want to be isolated.
"Now you've done it," I scared everyone, making them guilty for their actions.
Apparently, Kei heard what I said and came out from the kitchen. He glared at everyone and headed to Daiki. We watched from a distance what Kei would do. Daiki seemed to ignore him, but after a while, he started to respond to Inoo.
Even though I didn't look at everyone, I felt their gazes on the two BEST members. I stared at them too, but my attention was suddenly focused on Dai-chan when I saw a tear run down his cheek.
After a few minutes of conversing, Kei finally stood up. He was tugging on Daiki's arm, telling him to come along to the kitchen. Inoo-kun approached us while continuing to hold onto Daiki's arm that was behind him.
"Guys, you gotta stop this childish act. You don't have to make Dai-chan's current situation even worse." he scolded at the other members.
I know that sermon was intended for the rest of JUMP, but I felt like I was the one being scolded at. I am, after all, the one that caused Dai-chan pain in the first place, they just played around with that issue. Inoo's words went right through me.
I felt an awkward silence in the atmosphere of the room. But what I didn't know was that it was because of me. Everyone had their eyes on me.
"What the matter, Yama-chan~?" Takaki joked.
"Yeah, what's on your mind~?" Hikaru teased.
Now I was really nervous. They know I got hurt by Inoo's words. By now, I think blood has escaped my face.
"Nothing," I answered briefly.
"Inoo, what did you say we shouldn't do and why~?" Yabu teased some more, and I'm sure they know what was in my mind.
[Daiki's POV]
Pretty much everyone knows why Yamada was spacing out after Inoo let go of those words.
And now, the joke's not on me anymore. They're making Yama-chan guilty, and I can't stand it.
They continued to tease him and I was shaking in anger.
"Hey!" I yelled. Everyone stared at me, waiting for what I was gonna say next.
[Yamada's POV]
They continued to make me feel guilty, and it was working. The pain was unbearable, and I felt like I was about to cry.
We were all incredibly surprised when Daiki suddenly yelled at them. We were all in shock. Every member's eyes were on him.. including mine.
"I knew you guys we childish, but I didn't know you were mean."
It's the first time I saw Daiki like this. We were together since we were juniors, but I've never seen him this furious.
"Ano.." Chii-kun started to speak, "we're sorry."
After that brief apology from the smallest JUMP member, everyone nodded, showing that they agree with Chii, feeling sorry as well, they were just too ashamed to say it aloud.
Thank goodness Daiki seemed content with their 'apologies' and sat down with the rest of us.
The furious Dai-chan I've never seen before.. was because of me. He wouldn't have been like that if they didn't act like that towards me.
He's never been mad at the other before.. does he like me that much?
Does he like me enough to be someone he's never been before just for my sake?
All these thought were floating around in my mind and I couldn't help but feel something different.. I've never felt like this towards him before. And since, this is after all, my first time, I'm puzzled of what this emotion is. Should I be afraid of it? Should I try to stop it or should I let it be? Should I tell the other about this or should I keep it to myself?
Ahhh done~ I shall post le second part soon~
The group I really enjoyed working with Hey! Say! JUMP. But Before JUMP was even formed, I already had so much fun with Hey! Say! 7, basically because I liked all the members. Not to be biased or anything, but the one I loved was Yamada Ryosuke, Yama-chan, as we call him.
Whenever I see his adorable face, I can almost die, and I'll die happy. Every time he smiles, my heart melts. And when he asks me to do things I'm too lazy to do, he pulls out that pout that kills me. I know it's weird for me to like him but.. I can't help it. He's irresistible.
I've already confessed my love for him and almost a year has passed since then. He rejected my confession a few days later, but I never stopped loving him. I definitely don't want to get hurt, but I'm sure I don't want to stop loving him.
I keep doing everything he says, and most of the time I certain he's taking me for granted. The other JUMP members have seen me suffer because of my love for Yama-chan and pity me for it. They even tried to talk Yama-chan into liking me behind my back but it didn't work. But even so, I still didn't give up.
That's just how love is, right? You can't force someone to love you back, but still, you continue to love them without expecting anything in return.. they're the ones who your heart chose, and no one can change that.
[Yamada's POV]
It feels weird when you've been good friends with someone and suddenly he tells you he loves you.
That's why ever since, I did my best to preserve my friendship with one of the JUMP members, Arioka Daiki. I can't find it in my heart to love him back. Believe me, I tried. And because of my inability to repay the love he shows, I appear as the bad guy between the two of us.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
I'm leaving today. Me and the rest of the group are having a small get-together in Kei's house and, sleeping over as well.
But I'm a tad nervous about this 'cause this might be another plot to make me like Dai-chan again. I don't wanna to be disliked by my fellow members because of this issue, but I don't blame Daiki for it.
I was deep in thought when my phone, located on the top of my drawer, started to ring, startling me a bit.
"Moshi moshi? Inoo-kun?" I answered.
"Yama-chan, I just called to remind to about our little party later," he explained.
I chuckled, "How could I forget?"
"Well, I'm just calling to make sure. I'm calling every member"
"Ahh... I see. Well, I won't forget~" I assured.
"You better not. Anyway, I have to go. I'm still preparing our sleeping place."
"Hai, bye bye~" hanging up the phone right after.
Having two hours left to prepare myself, I took a shower, got into my clothes and preparing extra clothes that I placed in my backpack. I put my phone in my pocket and headed out my bedroom door. My mom was in the other room so I raised my voice for her to hear, saying that I'll be going to Inoo's house and took my leave.
The party popped in my head and again became nervous because of my theory that this is all a scheme to get me to like Dai-chan.
But I'm not gonna let that stop me from having fun. I deserve to have fun, I worked really hard, and so did the others.
Before I knew it, I was one block away from Kei's house. I saw Hikaru and Yabu on the other side of the street and waved at them. They noticed me and I was expecting a "yo~!" or for them to wave back in return, but they always seem to surprise me. They ran towards me while loudly yelling "Yama-chaaaan~!!" like we haven't seen each other in years.
Before we could even stand in front of Kei's house, he already opened the door. He probably heard the two yelling.
"Yo~!" Kei greeted, "Good thing you're here now. Chii and Ryu are already here, they came together, so did Yuto and Keito."
A few minutes after our arrival cam Takaki with Dai-chan.
"Ah! The two are finally here~!" Yuto exclaimed.
"Dai-chan, why are you with Takaki? Have you already replaced Yama-chan~?" Ryutaro teased at the sight of the two.
"Hai!" Yuya intervened before Daiki could defend himself, "I have replaced Yama-chan is Daiki's heart~" he joked followed by a giggle.
"Takaki! What has gotten into you?!" Daiki burst into laughter.
"I see Yama-chan is irreplaceable in Dai-chan's heart, I see~" Hikaru joined in.
"-sigh- I guess it's useless to fight back since no one listens," Daiki surrendered.
"Chill, Dai-chan. We were only teasing~" Yabu-kun said.
Everybody gathered around the dining table waiting for the food. Takaki joined us while everyone noticed that Daiki stayed in the living room, seeming to want to be isolated.
"Now you've done it," I scared everyone, making them guilty for their actions.
Apparently, Kei heard what I said and came out from the kitchen. He glared at everyone and headed to Daiki. We watched from a distance what Kei would do. Daiki seemed to ignore him, but after a while, he started to respond to Inoo.
Even though I didn't look at everyone, I felt their gazes on the two BEST members. I stared at them too, but my attention was suddenly focused on Dai-chan when I saw a tear run down his cheek.
After a few minutes of conversing, Kei finally stood up. He was tugging on Daiki's arm, telling him to come along to the kitchen. Inoo-kun approached us while continuing to hold onto Daiki's arm that was behind him.
"Guys, you gotta stop this childish act. You don't have to make Dai-chan's current situation even worse." he scolded at the other members.
I know that sermon was intended for the rest of JUMP, but I felt like I was the one being scolded at. I am, after all, the one that caused Dai-chan pain in the first place, they just played around with that issue. Inoo's words went right through me.
I felt an awkward silence in the atmosphere of the room. But what I didn't know was that it was because of me. Everyone had their eyes on me.
"What the matter, Yama-chan~?" Takaki joked.
"Yeah, what's on your mind~?" Hikaru teased.
Now I was really nervous. They know I got hurt by Inoo's words. By now, I think blood has escaped my face.
"Nothing," I answered briefly.
"Inoo, what did you say we shouldn't do and why~?" Yabu teased some more, and I'm sure they know what was in my mind.
[Daiki's POV]
Pretty much everyone knows why Yamada was spacing out after Inoo let go of those words.
And now, the joke's not on me anymore. They're making Yama-chan guilty, and I can't stand it.
They continued to tease him and I was shaking in anger.
"Hey!" I yelled. Everyone stared at me, waiting for what I was gonna say next.
[Yamada's POV]
They continued to make me feel guilty, and it was working. The pain was unbearable, and I felt like I was about to cry.
We were all incredibly surprised when Daiki suddenly yelled at them. We were all in shock. Every member's eyes were on him.. including mine.
"I knew you guys we childish, but I didn't know you were mean."
It's the first time I saw Daiki like this. We were together since we were juniors, but I've never seen him this furious.
"Ano.." Chii-kun started to speak, "we're sorry."
After that brief apology from the smallest JUMP member, everyone nodded, showing that they agree with Chii, feeling sorry as well, they were just too ashamed to say it aloud.
Thank goodness Daiki seemed content with their 'apologies' and sat down with the rest of us.
The furious Dai-chan I've never seen before.. was because of me. He wouldn't have been like that if they didn't act like that towards me.
He's never been mad at the other before.. does he like me that much?
Does he like me enough to be someone he's never been before just for my sake?
All these thought were floating around in my mind and I couldn't help but feel something different.. I've never felt like this towards him before. And since, this is after all, my first time, I'm puzzled of what this emotion is. Should I be afraid of it? Should I try to stop it or should I let it be? Should I tell the other about this or should I keep it to myself?
Ahhh done~ I shall post le second part soon~