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There he goes... screen went black and the tears just didnt stop... she knows he will be back but just having a very very shitty day and now not talking to him for a week... that is so hard on her... i hurt so bad inside right now.. my heart hurts... i have been trying to show my friend the happy victoria... i show them that i am strong but on the inside i am hurting like crazy.... i want to cry all the time i want to scream.. i dont want to do this anymore.. i dont know what to do... i love him with all my heart and soul and never will stop... this man means everything to me... i havent stopped thinking bout him since the day he walked away after lunch... the site of him leaving me like that was a nightmare... was something that puts chills down my spine... something that... that i hate remembering....
I love him.. i love him alot....
I want my life to start with him.. feel him snuggle up to me in the middle of the night.. feel him kiss my forhead before he quitly walks out of the house to go to work in the morning... the feel of his hand in mine... that smile looking at me from a crossed the dinner table... i cant wait to have my best friend back in my life again... i can talk to him.. he would sometimes hold me.. tell me what i dont want to hear... those sunday drives... or just going and doing nothing when we had nothing to do.. just the way he looks when he is into a movie or video game.. his face just so still and calm.. so beautiful... i cant wait to be his wife... i dont want to wait but i know it will be worth it when he gets here....
I really am to worked up right now to even go on. i am sorry.. i have so much to say and all of it wants to come out right now.. i just am having one of those melt downs.... not the best kinda...
I love you chad.. i love you more then words can describe....
Good night all...
THE ONLY KITTEN THERE EVER WAS....
I love him.. i love him alot....
I want my life to start with him.. feel him snuggle up to me in the middle of the night.. feel him kiss my forhead before he quitly walks out of the house to go to work in the morning... the feel of his hand in mine... that smile looking at me from a crossed the dinner table... i cant wait to have my best friend back in my life again... i can talk to him.. he would sometimes hold me.. tell me what i dont want to hear... those sunday drives... or just going and doing nothing when we had nothing to do.. just the way he looks when he is into a movie or video game.. his face just so still and calm.. so beautiful... i cant wait to be his wife... i dont want to wait but i know it will be worth it when he gets here....
I really am to worked up right now to even go on. i am sorry.. i have so much to say and all of it wants to come out right now.. i just am having one of those melt downs.... not the best kinda...
I love you chad.. i love you more then words can describe....
Good night all...
THE ONLY KITTEN THERE EVER WAS....