why?
so posting is really a weird felling now, cuz i c no point to it since every1 is so dispersed now. but sometimes talking to walls is just what i need, well atleast u don't hear anything u don't want to. i don't know, x-mas always use to b a good time of year for me, but that seems to be changin as the yrs have progressed. but it's mainly my fault, cuz i have just stopped effin' believin in ppl altogether, yes thats how hurt i am. don't know man, ppl have told me i have changed n shit, n i totally believe it but i don't c it. i don't know why. i need (/want) to talk, but just have the hardest time opening up to anything to begin with. i don't know why. couldn't care less abt life. finals didn't seem nearly as painful, just cuz they seem my only refuge right now. again, i don't know why. never c anything good come out of even the worst things. i don't know why. i have never felt this lonely though im surrounded by more ppl than ever before. i dont know why. i can't even talk to the wall anymore cuz it prolly makes more sense than me. i don't know why!!!!!!!!!!