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look man i try to keep myself away from thinkin abt the past, but i cant help but think abt this. u know sometimes u r so focused and sure abt something in life that u jus take that leap of faith without askin urself any question or thinkin abt the consequences. everything i hav done in my fukin life so far has been to the best of my ability, but recent events hav led me to question this. i think i hav jus set that distance in my life so long that the sun jus set b4 i could even realize my goal. the dreams that once made me happy hav come back to stab me in my back. i dont frikin question the existence of god, but i will question his purpose. is it wrong to ask of god y he made the decision he did in my life or urs. i know ppl can say i dont belive in him cuz i ask him questions, but again if gods purpose was to spread happiness, then y does he giv me so much pain. i dunno what to do, but burrying my head in a book is definitely not the answer to my pain this time. i cant close my eyes or these dreams will try to kill me from the inside. i look for an answer but hav no hope. i know ppl will try to tell me that there is a tommorow, but this sun has set forever, the light is never to return and this darkness is spread all over my world.