The Seven Year Mark
On this date in the past, I've usually done an open letter to my brother, but this year I'm not going to do that. That's not to say I didn't try-- it's just everything I wrote felt forced and somewhat insincere. Like I was trying too hard. The letter shouldn't sound like it's straight out of a Lifetime tv movie.
Each year I feel differently about the anniversary and this year I'm ok. Not horrible, not great, just ok. My focus has been askew this week, and while in comparison I'm doing better than I have during the past seven years, nevertheless inside I'm a little bit of a mess. I've been cat-sitting the past two days, and as much as I love canyoncat's kitties, I can't wait to go home and see Fiona and enjoy this gorgeous weekend. I'll probably go over to the grave in Needham and I'm supposed to go make an appearance at my grandparents' house in Hingham. I'm going to keep busy. Visit friends, have some fun. I was thinking about taking a trip up to New Hampshire, but I'll have to play it by ear.
I'm definitely getting Chinese food tonight. Just seems like the right thing to do.
July 29th has become a strange little holiday for me. I've just done what I could to cope every year, and somehow the day ends up being a good one.
I miss Tippy. This entry wouldn't be complete without getting that out there. Although, I'm sure I didn't have to write it.
Each year I feel differently about the anniversary and this year I'm ok. Not horrible, not great, just ok. My focus has been askew this week, and while in comparison I'm doing better than I have during the past seven years, nevertheless inside I'm a little bit of a mess. I've been cat-sitting the past two days, and as much as I love canyoncat's kitties, I can't wait to go home and see Fiona and enjoy this gorgeous weekend. I'll probably go over to the grave in Needham and I'm supposed to go make an appearance at my grandparents' house in Hingham. I'm going to keep busy. Visit friends, have some fun. I was thinking about taking a trip up to New Hampshire, but I'll have to play it by ear.
I'm definitely getting Chinese food tonight. Just seems like the right thing to do.
July 29th has become a strange little holiday for me. I've just done what I could to cope every year, and somehow the day ends up being a good one.
I miss Tippy. This entry wouldn't be complete without getting that out there. Although, I'm sure I didn't have to write it.