unsure
the other day i found out that Jeremy isnt going to be back form TX for another 6 months...a very long time...im soo unsure of what to do..i want to be with him i really do..im just scared..scared that im wasting my time..i mean i love him..i love him soo much..im just soo scared with us being away from eachother for so long is going to bring us apart and i soo dont want that! not at all..i mean idk i do trust him but in away i dont just cause of the fact that he is a guy and he is soo far away..i mean i know that im not going to do anything thing like that again cause i dont want to go threw that again..i dont ever want to loose him..well i may beable to go visit him during x mas vacation only for a few days though and his grandma would be coming with me..he is going to pay for the plane ticket..i dont have to pay for anything..i really want to go and see him but my dad wants to talk to him 1st and im soo nervous about that..idk it just is a lot harder then i thought it would be..whenever i think about it..it seems to get harder if i dont it all seems to be okie..like he is here...i just miss him soo much..GOD WHY DOES HE HAVE TO GONE FOR SOO LONG!! it just seems to me like i care more about this relationship then he does...idk maybe it is just me..i think im in an emo mood..im just sooo uhh..i have to go and stop talking about it is making me sad