the world in silence
yesterday was sunday.. i woke up went to work went to my dad was happy... get online and then find out my ex boyfriend (matt) has a girlfriend (jessy) and started dating her lyk 5 days after we broke up..... he kissed her made the first move u kno then made out then decided to ask her out after they watched x men together (the movie i was suppose to see with him on the date that i was ditched).... all this i heard from him himself.. all he had to say was "lol i get over things fast"
i didnt cry when we broke up... but when i heard he lykd sumone else i broke down and died for the first time.. thank god i was at my friends house.. now i hear he is dating and i guess he is as tough as he claims after all it seems i really didnt reach his heart... as my heart froze into this agonizing pain i began to cry.. i cried.. not for him and this stupid highschool relationship.. not in pity.. in stupidity... fool me once shame on u fool me twice shame on me....
here is the pity part lol... i feel lyk i was just the dumb blonde.. i shouldve known should have seen it... it was more than just love is blind it was just i was too scared to face the pain that i cant make someone love me... yet i am here facing it anyway because thats life thinking about how i was let down and the person i trusted the most has now killed me
i went to sleep and woke up an hour later with the thought of seeing them in skool.. at his mean words and undiable happiness.. and i swear to u i thought i was gonna throw up ... i could not stop shaking not sure with anger or saddness but sum strong ass combination.. i dont care if i exaggerate i dont care if im being annoying or coming off as wanting attention when i say this..
but i dont think any pain is greater than the pain that is inflicted when love is forgotten..
at that moment i prayed to God to take me while i still had the slightest tingle of what love was...
i didnt cry when we broke up... but when i heard he lykd sumone else i broke down and died for the first time.. thank god i was at my friends house.. now i hear he is dating and i guess he is as tough as he claims after all it seems i really didnt reach his heart... as my heart froze into this agonizing pain i began to cry.. i cried.. not for him and this stupid highschool relationship.. not in pity.. in stupidity... fool me once shame on u fool me twice shame on me....
here is the pity part lol... i feel lyk i was just the dumb blonde.. i shouldve known should have seen it... it was more than just love is blind it was just i was too scared to face the pain that i cant make someone love me... yet i am here facing it anyway because thats life thinking about how i was let down and the person i trusted the most has now killed me
i went to sleep and woke up an hour later with the thought of seeing them in skool.. at his mean words and undiable happiness.. and i swear to u i thought i was gonna throw up ... i could not stop shaking not sure with anger or saddness but sum strong ass combination.. i dont care if i exaggerate i dont care if im being annoying or coming off as wanting attention when i say this..
but i dont think any pain is greater than the pain that is inflicted when love is forgotten..
at that moment i prayed to God to take me while i still had the slightest tingle of what love was...